back it up baby

bye bye baby

2008-09-27T12:06:00.000-07:00

alright listen up people ! this is important !
i have changed my blog . i mean like i've made a new blog .
hehe . sooo pleeasee re-link me yea . i wont delete this blog bcz i wnt to make ths blog as a memory . aww . hee .
sooo , pls visit my new blog yeaa (:
cheers !

blog : suesuee.blogspot.com

persiapan (:

2008-09-23T23:20:00.000-07:00

hari raya is just around the corner and im NOT gonna say that i cnt wait to go back to kelantan since EVERY SINGLE TIME when i went back to kelantan , SURELY something bad'll happen . im actually getting used of it already . haha . well , i dnt mean that i dislike going back but i dnt know . thre's nothing much to do thre . it's a very VERY boring place . trust me . you wouldnt wanna go thre . i think i'll be sleeping over at nenek's place which is at ANAK IKAN , Besut , Terengganu . haha i know . the name anak ikan would wnt to make you laugh your heads off rght ? i dnt knw why kelantan people like to put funny names to their kampung . i mean , imagine you're meeting some new friends and they asked whre do you live ? and you say : " oh i live in anak ikan " . OBVIOUSLY the friend thre wld be like -.- uhhhh huh ? hahaha . okay dh stop .

fr the persiapan raya here , we just put up the lampu kelip2 . aha . AND dnt forget listening the lagu rayas in the morning otw to schl . haha . here's a pic which i dnt know why i ws so semangat-ed to put it in my blog . haha ,

haha , semangat kan ? well , nothing to do kan , wth . heheheh .
to be honest with y'all , i am currently in a relationship with 'hotlink' . haha -.-' hotlink has been messaging me non-stop maan . seriously rimas . haih i know , LAME . hahahah . so ? making the best out of my life la niiii . tk salaah . haha . fortunately , benedict choong has been complaining that i've been posting loadsome of depressing blog nowadays . hahaha . okay im trying not to ? great great . hee (:

HAAA !! you guys should really watch this movie called " freedom writers " . seriously the best . the movie teaches you abt racialism , working hard , and so on lah . haha . i love love looovveee the movie . well , fr me to be embarassed abt something , eventhough the movie is abt troubled kids and their lives , i almost cried watching it . hahaha . laugh at that ! the casts are not familiar to me but wth la kan ? hehe . oh i know one of them lah , Mario and Hilary Swank (:

so thats it ! hee . go check it out okaaay (: byeee .

marishka hargitay (:

2008-09-20T06:45:00.000-07:00

THE LOVE GURU (:

here's a blog which i dnt think y'all understand . haha but wth , i dnt want y'll to understand pn . hehe . good luck on reading it ! hee

ओम्ग एस , इ'ल पोस्ट अ (मय्बे) लॉन्ग ब्लॉग , एंड एमो ब्लॉग तो बे एक्जेक्ट . एंड थिस इस वही इ दंत वांट एनी ऑफ़ यू रेअदेरस तो उन्देर्स्तंद सिंस इट्स रेगार्डिंग माय लोवेलिफे एंड ठस इन्वोल्वेस थे पीपुल ठाट नोट मानी पीपुल विल लिखे थेम तो बे सैद हियर . वेल , सॉरी बुत आईटी'स माय ब्लॉग (: हैः . तो बे होनेस्त , इ विल नोट ओनली से इ लिखे हेल्मी , बुत इ लव हेल्मी . एस पीपुल , मोहद. हेल्मी नासिर . इ कांत देस्क्रिबे मच ओं हाउ मच इ लव हिम बुत येः . थिस इस वहत इ और पेर्हप्स वे कॉल थे "चिंता बेर्तेपुक सेबेलाह तनगन" . हाहा नोट तो बे थे जिवंग बेर्कारत पुण्य मीनः बुत सीरियसली , इ लव हिम लिखे हेल . एंड इ वल्ड लव तो तेल यू गुयस थे फुल स्टोरी बुत इ'म अफ्रैद ठाट आईटी'ल हर्ट सम पीपुल और मय्बे म्य्सेल्फ़ . okay here we go ,
थे नेम 'हेल्मी' एन्तेरेड माय लाइफ'स दिक्तिओनर्य बी सरह सनुसी . एंड मय्बे समीर ? हम . सरह वेंट तो थे समे सचल अस हेल्मी दोएस बेफोरे किंग इन्तो मीन . एंड समीर वेंट तो थे समे टूशन अस हेल्मी . सो थे टोल्ड में सतोरिएस अबत हेल्मी . थे सैद ठाट हेल्मी वस फुन्न्य एंड मय्बे वाक्क्य . थे टोल्ड में सतोरिएस अबत हेल्मी एंड तिकोत . एंड ठाट टाइम इ वास इन लव विथ माय एक्स . सो इ दंत कुइते केयर अबत ओथेर गुयस . सो ठोस सतोरिएस जुस्त एंडेड तेरे . फुल्ल्स्तोप . फर कुइते सम टाइम , सोमेथिंग हप्पेनेद , एंड माय एक्स ठाट टाइम कॉल्ड सरह एंड समीर कज हे कोउल्ड'टी राच में . सो मय्बे थे द्द्न्त हवे एनी क्र्द्त ? सो थे सैद तहत थे बोर्रोवेद हेल्मी'स फ़ोन तो कॉल में . सो ठाट टाइम , थे कांताक्ट 'हेल्मी १३' एन्तेरेड माय फ़ोन'स कांताक्ट बुक -.- फर अबत २ और ३ मंथ्स ? इ शिफ्टेड सचल तो समक उस्ज १३ अंडर सम उनवोइदाब्ले रेअसोंस . एंड अत ठाट टाइम इ ओनली क्नेव अकाप , नज्म , मरल एंड तेरा . नो मोरे नो लेस . इ वस नर्वस फॉर गोद'स सके ! तो माय क्नोविंग्स , इ गोत इन्तो थे समे कलस अस हेल्मी'स . ग्रेट . बुत इ द्द्न्त क्नोव हिम एंड इ दंत कुइते केयर ? हाहा . थें इ क्नोव ठाट हे ढ ऑफ़ दगं तिकोत . स्टील , माय मंद सैद "सो ?" . तिल ओने टाइम , इ लिखे हिम . इ अच्तुअल्ली लिखे हिम . इ थौघ्त आईटी वस जुस्त अ मेन२ पुण्य लिखे बुत सोमेहोव आईटी बच्क्फिरेड . सिंस थें , एवेरी रेलातिन्शिप ठाट इ'वे गोत्तें म्य्सेल्फ़ इन्तो , मुस्त बे कांसिदेरेड बी थे नेम "हेल्मी" . फर एक्साम्प्ले , व्हेन अ गाए अस्क्स तो बे माय बोय्फ़ , इ'ल बे थिंकिंग "अल , हेल्मी ? न्त इफ दिया सुका अकू समने ?" तेरे आईटी गोएस . हम . थें , आईएम सिंगल . ततबे हे ओं स्कंडल बालक दगं तिकोत . फुक्क ! इ संत एक्सेप्ट थे फक्त बुत वथ इ संत दो अन्य्थिंग . इ जुस्त कपट माय कूल . हे क्नोव्स ठाट इ लिखे हिम . बुत व्हेन हे अस्केद फ़ना , शे सैद ठाट इ ढ तक सुका हिम ब्च्ज़ शे वस कोवेरिंग फर में ? इद्क . ओके लाह . सो नो , आईएम क्रेजी अबत हिम . इ कांत स्टैंड आईटी . सीरियसली . इट्स किल्लिंग में व्हेन इ क्नोव ठाट हे दोएस्न्त लिखे में अत अल एंड तकेस में अस जुस्त अ फ्रेंड नोट मोरे थान ठाट . हैः . एवेंथौघ मोस्ट ऑफ़ ओउर क्लास्स्मतेस क्नोव्स ठाट इ लिखे हिम . एंड थे कपट तेअसिंग उस . इद्क , इ वांट तो मोवे ओं कज इ क्नोव इट्स हार्ड फर हिम तो मोवे ओं फ्रॉम तिकोत . इ क्नोव . बुत येत इ कांत मोवे ओं . एवेर्य्तिमे इ वंत तो , हे कोमेस एंड तलक तो में एंड प्लेस अरंड :'( इट्स फुक्किंग हार्ड . बुत इ वांट तो लिखे हिम . इ वांट तो लव हिम , कण्व वही ? कज इ क्नोव ठाट इ'ल बे हप्पिएर ठाट वे . ओह नो , मय्बे इ'ल बे हप्पिएर इफ सोमेहोव हे लोवेस में बेक . बुत इ क्नोव ठाट'ल नेवर हप्पें . र्घत नो आईएम दमन कांफुसेद वेठेर इ श्ल्ड मोवे ओं और नो . हैः . माय फ्रिएंड्स सैद ठाट इ श्ल्ड मोवे ओं बुत इट्स हार्ड . हम . हेल्प में ?

ahahahah read that !! hm . i mean , dnt even try ? ahaha nothing lah iws just crapping shit .
i just finished watching the love guru , reminded me of someone , wtv . ahah . well its nice but they LOVE to mention anything that has to do with dick ! hahahah , omg okay too much info . life ? damn , life sucks now . everything seems to just stress me up somehow . everything is wrong . hm . watever lah , i just hope to die and mati keras anywhre but here , home . i wish to off my phone and PRETEND that i dnt have a phone cz its not functioning really well since TAK PENAH NK ADA MSG MASUK . sheesh . okay now seriously you guys NEED to watch the love guru . hee

i cursed the day you were born !!

2008-09-17T02:11:00.000-07:00

i love me ? hha

i finally have the time to renew myself up . haha , i've sorted myself today and that includes organising my room , changing my e-mail and soon standardising my password (: mama and i will be going to bazaar later , urgh , the temptation to buka puasa is like soooooooooooooooo big if somehow i go to any bazaar . EXCEPT usj 8's bazaar , ew dhla mahal gilaaa ! imagine the sambaled anchovies (sambal ikan bilis la) yg very the sikiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitt , i mean like suku-suku sudu besar tu , RM3 !! imagine !! if this crisis'll keep going on lke ths , seriously , all those makciks yg jual kt bazaar jd kaya and we people jd miskin -.- tk fair btol . juusst now , kakak went out with her 'so-called-boyf' haha more to people punya boyf ! seriously the only one thing that i cant understand rght now is my sister . i do not wish to cerita abt her keburukan here in my blog , soooo , too bad . being me , just sitting here and tercongok dpan laptop is never fun . AND having a phone yg TKDE SAPA pn nk text . one word : TORTURE . haih . not to be all emo-ish AGAIN , but ths seriously sucks . haha . i mean like seriously . now i really really hope fr my mum to gve me nk buka puasa wth friends tmr and friday . when i told my mum ws like "banyaaaak duet ?" haha , obviously nk kne mntk my bank-bergerak la kn , and fhm2 sndri lah mama . hee .

alrght then , ive to go and siap2 lah eventhough its just 5.30 . but pls undertsand im a anak dara yg suka siap lambat2 . haha minimum time to siap is 30 minutes . selagi tk 30 mins i wont turun . haha , okay dh . toodles (: oh yea ! i love you ? heheh

p/s : ank ayam ???? hahaha its rude to invade everyone's tagboard by the name of "anak ayam" . haha , if you wish to be one , i'll help you ya . hee . loves !

ish

2008-09-16T00:22:00.000-07:00

help me ? haih .

im sick of posting emo blogs , ahha even my friends says so . haiyoh ! okay stop . my 'NEW' life starts here (:

okay , im fine . im FINE !! hha , just got a 'hot story' bout them ppls . fucking stop it will you guys ? haha . okay schl ? nothing much . BOSAN . hahaha . plus im currently in a state of confusion abt something . they say this , but I say that . he says ?? hahaha , okay stop merepek-ing . okay this week punya MAYBE(s) :-

going to sunway bcz me , chui shen , yan ling , fana and albita (CIK Albita heheh) yearns fr a goodie bag , gosh desperate gila oh . haha . so gerak with CIK Albita thn MAYBE buka puasa sana , shoot straight off to taipan thn make a reservation at naili's fr friday . thn tuition -.-

going to BUKA PUASA with class B and C at naili's ramai2 . cz ths week will be the last week the practical students are here . so sbb kterang syg CIK Al bita we plan lah mcm ni hee , we've planned that all our classmates kne puasa , bru fun ! hee . hope this plans jd , haha . $$ tkde dohh . sdih sdih . aha , be prepared nk kne mara or tk boleh pegi la kn :( stress aku -.-

okay dh . hee . nothing to say more . oh yea , i love you

:(

2008-09-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU ,

okay stop , this hurts like hell . i have been crying on and off since yesterday and to be more specific with the crying thingy , i doesnt matter wether im with my mom , while im eating , while im at a restaurant yg full of humanoids , wherever !! i'll cry if i think about it again . it huuuurrrtss :( i wish fr this to stop as its killing me . i hate to be all emo-ish but i just cant help it . no motivations or motivaters fr example Dato Dr. Fadhilah Kamsar *i hope ive spelled it rght* cn calm me down . i think what people thought of me rght nw is , this thing is not bothering me that much but it isss !! goossshhh ,, god , please stop this . i beg of you . okay dh . hm .

guess what , i've been opening my puasa fr 3 times at the same restaurant in one week !! hahaha , twice wth friends and once wth family . omg , the waiters there dh knal my face and dh boring i think , err . i am currently in a shortage of $$$ sooo anyone jgn la mntk blanje . hahaha . sorray .

okay dh , stop . heheh . i love you .

2008-09-12T08:44:00.000-07:00

it's true actually , the quote i mean . im so fcking stressed up by a person rght nw . not stressed up but disappointed actually . i seriously feel like i wnna cry the heck out of me . yea up to the extend that i feel like i wnna cry just fr the fact that i know i wont be THAT close to him anymore . haahhh , wtv laahh . today fr what i know , is the most emo-est day fr everyone . 12o9 . ill remember it . hah poyo . seriously . idk bout you guys but fr myself , ths morning , im nt talking to my mum . thn i went to school , time balek cm sial . thn i got back , onlined thn ada laaa ths person emo after that ths person then that person . haih . such a busy emo-ish day . sucks like hell . to be exact thre're some unavoidable crisis that seriously HAS jeopardised some friendships or even relationships . i dont know maan . today seriously sucks . someone that's significant to me vanishes frm my life or shld i say my rghts of jurisdiction OF my life . wtf ? idk what am i merepek-ing . crack gila today . i feel like i wanna die laah . but like what fana said , tk guna jd the emo freak . i shld help myself cz if i dnt thn who will ? rght ? haih . okay dh , blogging about my problems is such a no no fr anyone who reads my blog cz i know its boring . hha sorry readers !

actually other than all those emo-ish stuffs , i just dont know wht to blog abt . life ? i mean LIFE is all oemo-ish rght noww . studies ? hahh , mmg out to the lombong thre lah kaan . 'apa nk jd lah ank dara ni' . yea yea wtv -.- love ? i do not wish to talk abt that rght now . family ? hm , no comment . i cn feel the GAP between us . wtv lah , i dnt thnk it matters to anyone . sheesh . school ? okayokay la . see , i hve nothing to blog abt . soo , might as well just publish ths freaking blog and waste my time by onlining and wtv -.-

have a nice day .

oh yea , before that . i feel very the *terasa when i listen to this song ,

We belong together
And you know that I'm right
Why do you play with my heart,
why do you play with my mind?

Said we'd be forever
Said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave me
And never say good-bye?

When I can't sleep at night
without holding you tight
Girl, each time I try I just
break down and cry
Pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinnin' around and around

Although we've come to the End Of The Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to
me, I belong to you
Come to the End of the Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to
me, I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,
You just don't realize
You've never been there before
It's only your first time

Maybe I'll forgive you, hmm
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and I

Can you love me again like
you loved me before ?
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me,
don't let me down

Girl I'm here for you
All those times of night
when you just hurt me
And just run out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it, I just didn't care
You just don't understand how
much I love you do you?
I'm here for you

I'm not out to go out and
cheat on you all night
Just like you did baby
but that's all right
Hey, I love you anyway
And I'm still gonna be here
for you 'till my dying day
baby
Right now, I'm just in so much pain baby
Coz you just won't come back to me
Will you? Just come back to me

-seriously im not dedicating ths song to anyone pun . trust me

im crazy over youu

2008-09-11T00:41:00.000-07:00

yesterday we 7 girls excluding shasha cz of a unavoidable reason went to buka puasa at taipan (: i love them sickos :p

whuaaa , im in the mood of tk betol rght now . hee . days are turning into those better days lah kn , haha much preferred days in contrary of the days yg nk gdo je ngn everyone and makes me wnt to go to alaska and tk balek2 smpai mati . haih . haha okay wtv lah , now moving on (: i love love love school nowadays . dnt know why . hha , except fr the times yg ddk lpak2 kt class thn fana bwt dajal . haha , lu bikin wa panas aa . but now pn i realise that im getting closer to all my classmates , hee . i love them (: *wink wink* hahahahaha . okay dh diam .

i have not been puasa-ing bcz of the "datang bulan" punya season sooo i guess i got dikecualikan , ngeheheh . cant say much about life , hee . wtv it is , im happy (: thanks to god ! alhamdulillah .. haha , alim alim . okay i kind of got myself addicted to word "whuaaaaa" . damn you hisyam ! i know by saying whuaaa i cn annoy people . but seriously its irresistable ! aha . hisyam is currently trying to make me feel angry towards him like everyday ! haha . its kind of annoying but bangga jugak la dpt compliment ' sue ni tkley mara oh ! ' whuaaa ! banggabangga ! hahaha .

okay guess what ? i've got a secret and dnt ask me what ! haha , but thn , i hate that secret . hahaha , i myself tk fhm wth am i talking abt . okay dh , excluding the complications , this secret is KILLING me cm babi . haha . seriously . dnt get me wrong okay human (:

hit me !

2008-09-06T09:23:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh , to be honest i miss LOVE ! haha its kind of funny fr me to say it but yeaah , i do miss the feeling of loooveee . nt the type of 'love' which brings out the phrase ' i love you baby <33> haha , and nt the 'love' that makes you put his or her name or picture in myspace or blog or yr phone's wallpaper or wtv just to show people that you have a boyf/girlf . oh please . i miss the 'love' that i had once time duluu duluuu . i dnt miss the person lah ! sheesh . the FEEL . haha . seriously . the feeling which makes you think abt him all the freaking TIME ! and eventhough he makes stupid mistakes or even BIG mistakes , well , it does matter at first , but towards the end , you'll smile and just say i love you again . the feeling that makes you go crazy even if you're having a silly fight over silly things . the feeling that brings you joy when he's making you happy and brings you DEATH if he's making you sad . idk , whn it has ended it doesnt seem like anything to me . but after 6 or 7 months , it's starting to creep slowly in my head and makes me to want to have love again . i hate it . do you knw what i had at that time ? omg i cant describe . its like , you're crazy abt him and you know , i dont even bother to check other guys out . even if they're hot mana pon , i dnt care . all i think abt is him . he revolved around my world and it scares me sometimes when i just THINK that i know i'll lose him eventually . it kills me when we're having our first fight . seriously and honestly , i dnt miss him at all , i just miss the feel of it . the feel of knowing that you do have someone that'll be thre whn you're in the dumps . mmg la dia kne ada kn , if not emo la satu tahun ! haha . well , im not posting this blog just to be all mushy mushy abt luurrveeee .. in fact just to spill out the things that's haunting my head fr WEEKS ! the recent LOVE ws just the ones that i just 'care fr him' nt 'i wld do anything fr him' . haih . im not desperate fr a boyf , no . i admit i feel lonely . but what the heck ! apa gunanya scandal ? haha . jk . the recent love ws all about CARE . yes i admit i sayang him but just with suku suku hati je la . haha . a sayang him bcz he ws thre fr me . i sayang him bcz of his attitude . well i THOUGHT that he wld be the one that i'll LOVEEEE gila babi like i loved the one yg dulu tuuu . haih . but not to say that he's not perfect . he is , i do like him , but not the WHOLE package . his friends , his maki-makiness . no , i tk ktuk you dear . im not . hm . mcm samira ckp , 'tnggu laa , nnt2 ada la tuu' wheenn ??!?! but yea my friends and i know that whenever im SINGLE , im happy and cheery . whn im taken , i'll be all moody-ish and all . wht to do ?? haha . i guess this feeling will somehow fade away and i prefer to be single as no one can ~~HURT~~ me anymore .

im going to kl tmr with teyrasayang , haha . just to find maybe sandals or pumps or wtv . knw why ? cz this footwear that im wearing currently is OLD and i hate it . haha . plus , mama's having her class tmr and me teyra will buka our puasa with mama lah . save money maa . haha .

till we meet again (: loves <3

SICK OF ALL THIS !!

2008-08-31T07:57:00.000-07:00

QUOTES
omg i just love quotes , especially life quotes . it kind of inspires me in a way , enjoy it thn (:

"Our attitudes control our lives. Attitudes are a secret power working twenty-four hours a day, for good or bad. It is of paramount importance that we know how to harness and control this great force. "
- Tom Blandi

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter. "

- Martin Luther King

"Our problems are man-made, therefore they may be solved by man. No problem of human destiny is beyond human beings. "
- John F. Kennedy

"Outstanding people have one thing in common: an absolute sense of mission. "

- Zig Ziglar

"Please all, and you will please none. "

- Aesop

" To exist is to change; to change is to mature; to mature is to create oneself endlessly. "

- Henri Bergson

"Love is too strong a word to say it too early, but it has too beautiful a meaning to say it too late."
- Kurt Cornish

"When you have nothing left but love, then for the first time you become aware that love is enough."
- Source Unknown

"Love is the best medicine, and there is more than enough to go around once you open your heart. "
- Julie Marie

"Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you. "

- Vipin Sharma

"You only have to do a very few things right in your life so long as you don't do too many things wrong. "
- Warren Buffett

"Love is not automatic. It takes conscious practice and awareness, just like playing the piano or golf. However, you have ample opportunities to practice. Everyone you meet can be your practice session. "
- Doc Childre and Sara Paddison

" True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. "
- Jason Jordan

" Love is fire. But whether it's gonna warm your heart or burn your house down you can never tell. "
- Jason Jordan

"If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it was, and always will be yours. If it never returns, it was never yours to begin with. "
- Unknown

" True love never lives happily ever after - true love has no ending. "

- K Knight

that's it maybe , FOR NOW .

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i hve had enough ! that's it ! what the hell did i do wrong ? everything is my fault is it ? you , why do you have to blame EVERYTHING on me ? its not that im saying that i didnt do anything wrong but it seems like evry single thing that happens between us is my fault , never yours . and its killing me ! i do care for you just like i care for him . so ? is it wrong to care for your bestfriend ? wht the fuck did i do wrong ?! why wouldn't you wnt to tell me ? instead , you want me to think myself . apa lancau ? fr all this while , you blamed me fr our ruptured friendship or relationship or wtv you call it . you blamed me !! i just kept my cool . but this time , you're involving him ?? and say that you're sick of seeing me do wtv im doing to him ? wtf ? about him , maybe you knw what i knw , so ? is it my fault ? haih . im tired . im sick and im tired of you . everytime you say something to me on msn , you'll say something that'll hurt me and you just say it like its nothing . then when you meet me face to face , at first yea you'll be sarcastic and stuff , but towards the end of the day , you'll hold my hand , you'll be sweet and stuff . wtf la ? are you trying to confuse me ? wtf are you trying to do ? then you'll say that signs wont last forever . i seriously cnt fucking understand you . im tired . now , all i can say is , i wont be your friend anymore and its not my loss or your loss . its a win-win situation maybe ? idk . what i knw , its the best solution cz i wont be doing anything that'll make you THINK . same goes fr him . yea i'll be his friend but we wont be as close as we were . i'll avoid him , and maybe , that'll make you feel okay , cz i wont be doing anything to him just like what you've said . i guess that'll make you happy .

end of one problem . hm . to this situation that im currently thinking abt is eating me up inside slowly . idk wht am i suppose to do ? i'll see you everyday ! haih . i cant say much about this since its kind of a sensitive topic . oh well , might as well just leave it and watch it as it dies .

maybe my days are now creeping into the season whre there'll be lots and lots and lots of problems incoming . and there are now maybe two or three problems that have settled in me . except fr friends , they've been good to me lately . i mean , we all are being good to each other . that's what i think . hm . family ? idk , okay i guess ? mama's in vietnam now since she's doing a small business on telekungs and stuffs , soo , my first day of puasa with this family wont be including mama lah . quite sad but small stuffs , not to worry much . now im just bored of me whining abt life . mcm org tu ckp "jgn la merungut , you niee" yeaaa . he's right . i NEED to stop whining abt stuffs and get things going ! hm . will try . and ppl , i'll say this and i'll do it , i will stop ******* pronto ! i mean now ! hear this , i wont ever do that thing again . ever . believe me (:

well now now , that's it . nothing to moan and whine abt . will update soon . loves <3

happy merdekaaa ;D

2008-08-31T00:53:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MERDEKA MALAYSIAA (:

hey happy merdeka everyoneeee !!!! hha . well , malaysia is obviouslyy 51 years old now . grreaatt ! currently feeling VERY proud of our pejuang pejuang negara dlu . hee . okkaay . fr merdeka eve i went to The Curve , omg it ws JAM-PACKED with humanoids . pening btol ! hha . went thre around 3 something cz we were worried there'll be no cabs going thre cz jam gilaa lah kn , hoh . sooo , used public transport yg mcm FULL with indons dgn their anaks2 . omg ! my hair my head everything mmg kne bang lah kn . haha , mmg siod . reached Curve around 3.3o kot . we wanted to surprise shasha and tasha and baby and tiqot lah kn , haha cz we've already told q that we're coming . thn when dh jumpa shasha , she ws like , haaaaaaaaaaa kata tk dtg !! *muka macam marah laa , emo to be exact , haha* thn jalan jalan jalan q wished to buy the spray thingy hha . went to cineplex and guess who'd we bump into ? my fav EX ! hha . that made my day ! seriouslyy . his friends ws waving at me so me and teyra just went thre and salam-ed they all lah kn , haha . to MY surprise , i salam-ed my EX ! i myself didnt knw why did i do that ! haha , okay that ws me being profesional lah kn . what has past let it pasl lah kn , why shld we hold grudges ? cm bdo pn ada . haha . soooo , went to q and the girls , my heart ws KIND OF beating cm gila lahh . haha . thn my leg ws all wobbly and all . alaa you knw the meet-your-ex feeling . haha . recent ex pulak tu ! omg . haha . waited fr tsh and the girls , idk whre did q pegi cz me and teyra wanted to surprise dorang , so we wait and wait and wait , suddenly teyra ws like " dorang ! omg dorang !! " haha i ws like okay sorok sorok !! but thn , they saw us and said " surprise la sgt kn ?! " hahaha . sorry babies ! ohh thn we lepak-ed at the Empress Cafe and minum2 lahh . there were 8 of us and all of us were girls !! cm gila cool . hha . theeenn , the group who ws sitting next to our table , okay behind kot ? haha . wtv lh , there were this guy who ws wearing a brown shirt , OMG COMEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL !! haha , he invited us all to lepak together but since we ourselves got our own group soo q respectfully declined his offer . damn !! haha . he ws seriously CUTE ! tkley tdo yesterday ! ahha . well , no jodoh kn . hha . soo after dh lepak kt ctu lama2 , we went everywhre !! and that is why my leg is aching and killing me noww ! seriouslyy ! haih . but wht the heck ! i had fun ! haha . well , the rest , was a typical merdeka celebration kaan . nothing much . haa ! just that whn we were TOTALLY exhausted kn , we sat at the empress cafe again , we sat at a table which ws located opposite of laundry , THEN , came this group and they lepak kt ctu jugaak ! menyampah aku . hha . dhla dkat that table jugaak . the exact table which aedy ordered FIVE ice lemon teas just fr the reason that we wanted to find somewhre to sit and not at the tangga2 whre the 'shufflers' all lepak-ed . haha . he paid rm4o okay !! then best2 they all lepak ctu . its okay if you want to just SIT thre , ni nk pndang2 slack . DISGUSTING and IMMATURE . eew . haha . okay let them be thn . we took looooaadds of pictures last night and i maybe will post a few later . hee . now i'll juat post one okaay . and its me ! hee . enjoy (:

MERDEKA

2008-08-28T09:51:00.000-07:00

SYG , HAPPY ?? HAHAHAHAHA ,,

tmr im nt going to school since 13's having the pelancaran wtv thingy that i dnt even knw . haha . afifi's going cz he'll be playing the kompang . gila nk ajk i pegi . sakai . hahahah . school td ws OKAY since i didnt masuk class at all , haha . i sat in the surau cz im doing a banner fr the school fr merdeka . hee . cool kn ? cheh poyo . hahaha . still , me , doing a banner . cm gila miracle !!! hahaha . first they told me that the banner must be passed to ustazah by the end of the day . gila bertungkus-lumus lah nk fnish it right , THEN , when we finished sketching , there were no paint langsung !! omg horror gila !! end up , we got the clr yellow and red je . hw la ? ahha . it ws fun la . through all and all , last2 haikal tny ustazah rupa2nya kne hntr 19th sept . aiyoh ! when we knew that cn send in late , apa lagi ! hahah . packed our stuff thn ran back lah . haha . i went back to teyra's hse , then qairul pulaak wanted to go to mpsj . i ws sleeping at teyra's hse . KNE KJUT ! omg . hha . went with shasha thn ate at old town . went to mpsj and EXERCISED . hahahha . cool gila dohhh . thn went to taipan . best best . hahha . tp kn today MERDEKA fr that guy . pathetic gila sial . nympah aku . hha . wtv lah . i still cn live . haha .

soooo guyyss , apa plan on saturday night huh baybehs ?? haha . fana !! calling calling me la okay . hee . thats it kot . mwa love yousss

alluring

2008-08-23T22:37:00.000-07:00

i have no point of blogging nowadays since theres nothing to blog about . hha . oh yea im going to tell you abt the past days that i went AND i am in the of posting blog abt ppl around me ! hee . okay you knw that i got sick after coming home frm kelantan rght , then , i got sick AGAIN ! grr . stress aku . the same headache and body aching . omg the most torturous days of my life !! i DNT wanna get sick ever again ! hha . cz of that i filled my holidays with just sitting at home and sleep ! omg wht a holiday lah kn ! haha . sbar jela . tmr's schooling ! omg ,, 50% tk sbar and 50% malaassss . haha . OH OH but ths holiday agk interesting (: 23rd ey eyy . haha . alright ! lets move on the friends punya part ..

teyra ( the bestfriend ) : omg omg i love her dohhh . i've been with her since like standard 6 ke hape . gila omg syg dia !! haha . everything that i do obviously WILL involve her , hee . my decisions , my boyfriends , my friends , my schools , my studies , my life , my EVERYTHING !! all includes her (: i love her with all my heart dohhh . her fam pn i dh anggap as my own . hee . enough said lah . fhm2 sndri jee , hee .

samira ( the bestfriend ) : ohh this girl ! hee . i started rapat with her since this year jee . cz she's in my class when i ws in usj4 . heh . she's crazyyyyyy and dia mmg boleh msuk kepala laa . haha . syg her lah . she's very open minded and omg i cn love her smpai bila2 ! haha .

effy ( the bestfriend ) : i ws in the same class with her when i ws in form 3r . hee . everything also with her lah ! tuition pn everything dgn dia . cool kn ? thats why i love her doh ! hee . she's quiet when i first saw her . thn when i befriended her , omg kje kterang gelak ! hahaha . damn best lah (: ily rakan karib ! hee

sara ( the bestfriend ) : ohhh sara pn baru rapat ths year , hee . she's also in the same class as i am in usj4 . she's like my alternate mother . aha . but nw she's in rawang fr boarding school . im missing you syg (:

qairul ain ( the bestfriend ) : i just knew her fr abt ........ 2 mnths ? haha . since msuk 13 lah sng ! hee . but she's niiiceee . betooll . tk tipuu . she's matured and sgt macho ! hha . ily wman !

tiqot ( the bestfriend ) : oh woaaaa , she's poetic woa . hha . sgt cool her words , haha . tiqot sgt garang but i LOVE it when she says " baby ! " hee . seriously tiqot , comel gila ! haha . but mmg la , tiqot hot mama ! haha ttbe je . ily zakirah ! :p

tasha ( the bestfriend ) : tasha !! haaaa , she's the most loudest and most ceria-est ! ahha , omg if tkde dia mmg diam la kn . she'll say anything ikt volume yg dia nk . haha . but she's nice anywayy . tasha selalu bwk food pagi2 and one time pnah kne tules karangan dgn dia and teyra cz pegi beli mineral kt canteen !! bdo pnya discipline teacher . hee . alright alright . pape pn , i still love her . hha .

baby ( the besfriend ) : baby sgt comel cz muka dia cm baby !! hha . she got round eyes just like me !! hee . she loves to dance and i think everyone knws . hha . she will only say something if its important sooo jgn lah fkir dia sombong , hee . kn baby ? ily !! ;D

uqasha ( the bestfriend ) : shasha ..!! hee . ni hot mama dohhh . haha . the way she dance , sgt hotstuff ! you shld see her getting low with the song low . haha . sgt cool ! other than that , she's sweet and nice lah . sgt funn if she acts around . haha . ily sygg (:

fana ( the bestfriend + best-classmate ) : omg she's the craziest girl i've ever met !! haha seriouslyy . lg2 when she's hyper gila babi ! mmg uncontrollable gila . but she's nice to talk to and she can hear my probs la . sme probs mmg she wont miss la , she's the second person who i'll talk to after teyra . hha . i love her dohhh . seriouslyyy ;)

anis ( the bestfriend ) : anissbabyyy . hee . started to rpat with her since cuti last year . kn ? haha btol lah . she's soooooooooooooooooooo nice to talk to cz she's considered as my soulmate maaa . she understands me well (: hee . ily bby !!

nicole main ( the bestfriend ) : ohh she's my kakak ! haha . rapat dgn dia , i also dnt knw why but i dnt regret it . hee . she gave great advices (: but nw dh tk rpat sgt since tk cntact dia sgt , haih . you'll always be in my heart , cheyy ! hahaha . ily lah pmpuan ! hee

rifdi ( the best classmate ) : he listens ! hee . he listens to my probs but dia sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sgt buat muka smpai i naek bengang ! hee . but i still syg diaa . he's nice la . although he's kind of a pervert to this tai po in our class , haha * wink wink . hahhaa . but he's still kind . he likes to tell stories mcm gila punya semangat ! and i like to listen . hee . ily gila !

helmi ( the crazy classmate ) : haha he's crazy . super super duper crazy nk mati ! he likes to say ( L O L ) hha and ( WINK WINK ) sgt annoying gila . he likes to talk back to teachers , lg2 cik tan , hhaha . lwk gila . well he lives up the class lah . helmi + rifdi = mmg MADNESS . hha ily !

bee ( the classmate yg best ! ) : oh ths guy sgt lah cool . hee . dia sgt cm girl . hee . he'll hear yr probs and will try to gve you solutions , hee sgt best kwn dgn dia . ily bee !

hilman ( the best best buddy ) : oh he's the CASANOVA la knon ! haha nympah aku , hahah , but still , he's cool and he's my bestfriend ! hee . well nk bwt mcm mne , dh tuition dgn dia . * terpaksa . hahahhaha no lah . ily lah mamat

amir malik ( the idk wht , haih ) : im tired of fighting with you man . seriously . cut it out . you wnt to txt yr friends go ahead lah . tk pyh la kerek sgt dgn i . dnt assume and say that i dnt trust you or i ragu2 dgn you . im not . its just that , i knw you maen2 je . haih . idk . face to face , you're great sweet and all that . but in msn or msgs , you're something else . wtv . ily still bro

afifi ( the bestfriend ) : afifi ! knp dgn you la sial ? omg sry la if i bwt pape wrong doings . adoi . still afifi sgt sweet and sgt baek . i often lepak dgn dia and we became close lah skali dgn hilman and all . hha . cool man . ily !

hairie ( the crazy bestfriend ) : he is seriously crazy and needs help ! hahaha . but he's cool though . best sgt lepak dgn dia . hee . ilyt lah manusia ;p

okay thats it kot . haha . pnat dh nk tules rmai2 . hee . still i love my friends . alright nk hujan dohhh . toodles (:

hey howw

2008-08-18T11:12:00.000-07:00

NEW HAIR *wink wink , hahahahahah

heeyyy (: well well well well well , i went back to kelantan last thursday ,, and by that ponteng-ed a day of school . hee . thn got sick on saturday , threw up on sunday , and got back here on sunday too hha . seriouslyy dmam !! urgh kepale mcm nk pecah you knw ! omg dnt wnt to get sick ANYMORE !! seksaaaaaaaaaaaaaa , alright alright , THEN , today i went to midval since i met my BESTF , hee . talked abt her prob thn settled it and then baru pegi jln2 . not so interesting lahhh i knw , hha . so wht ? hee . to be honest life is very very VERY dull nowadayss . and i dnt knw whyy . oh yeaaa i've cut my hair !! haha , AGAIN !! yeaaaa , boring kn , so ptg jela . like ppl always sayy " hair will always grow back but money doesnt " haha tkde kne mengena but so wht its true maa . hee . alrightt ,, im bored !! yeah !! ONE PESANAN , dnt ever balek later thn 5.30 on weekdays if you're taking public transport ! seriously !! i took ktm td and i've passed FOUR trains cz it ws damnfuckingly FULL !! grr mmg LU BIKIN GUA PANAASSSS la kn , hha . alright maybe thats it ot cz dh nothing to say , hha . gtg . TOODLES ! ly ! <3>

more than a woman

2008-08-08T23:54:00.000-07:00

hey hallo . i am currently uploading videos on youtube . check it out later yaa . i'll give out the links . hha lwk gilaa !! casts are rifdi , helmi , john choi , fana and benedict . hha . dorang psycho dohh . alright , yesterday ws 080808 . NICE DATE !! unfortunately i cnt have that date since tk smpat nk flirt ngn spe2 . HAHA . jk ! hm we had a table talk yesterday and things are good nw . thank god . ilyg (: and ptg tu we went to taipan to celebrate teyra's and nely's birthday . hee . we bought some cakes frm secret recipe and we brought it to be eaten at rooftop . lpas mkn2 and snapped some pics , QAIRUL AIN , took some cakes and pegi maen baling2 . omg i dhla nk pegi tution after that , gilaaaa . BUT . we had fun (: i'll upload some pics later . hee . today im supposately to go to tuition but mls gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa . urgh . tp yg penting youtube lama gila la . hha . sbar jela . alright then , mls nk post a long blog soooo , smpai sni shj (: ily <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU

2008-08-04T23:51:00.000-07:00

♥

i am happy to say HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY to my dearest dearest bestest friend , Nur Atirah bt. Che Razalli a.k.a Teyra . hee . today is her birthday and she can cry if she wants to ! aha okay psycho . we're having trouble in making decisions of whre to celebrate her birthday at BUT what i knw is i am still going to celebrate her birthday even if it's in a longkang blakang kedai binatang (: ily babyy ! happy birthday and may god bless youu . you'll always have me and dnt be sad , im here to the rescue ! hee . ily and happy 16th dear (:

FRESH

2008-08-04T00:10:00.001-07:00

okay i.ve deleted those posts . hope you guys are happy . im sorry okay (: lets start fresh (: heh , ily ! ;D

break it up baby

2008-07-31T00:11:00.001-07:00

okay , stop it okay . i've had enough . fine , i'll say sorry and im sorry . well not going to say sorry through my blog but eventually i'll say the word "SORRY" in front of your face . alright ?? and the ONLY reason of me saying sorry is because i've posted harsh things about you in my blog . pls understand that i too have feelings and i am just an ordinary human being with madness . wtv , ayt tk betol . hm . BUT it doesnt mean that you cn tell your friend and then your friend will like , i'll maki and i'll do that and i'll do this . stop this shit pls . im sick of it and i think saying sorry maybe will satisfy you and your friend . pape lah . those CHILDISHNESS . hah , wnt to make it clear that you ARE CHILDISH by saying that out loud in class ? omg , apa laa . apa motif la babe ? ish , tk fhm btol la y'all ni . wtv it is , SORRY . sheesh .

okay life ?? haha . okay la . turning out great (:

miracle

2008-07-29T00:39:00.000-07:00

hey fellow friends (: i dnt knw why but i dnt quite have the mood today . happiness of life is not in my side today . hha okay im crapping ! to start the day off , i woke up , then slept again . haha . last2 kakak woke me up at 6.40 ! mmg menggelupur lah kn . went speed racing then got in the car on time (: thank god . i cnt stand a day with writing those 400 words essay ! omg ! haha . then smpai school , saw meerul and walked with teyra . assembly ws okay , blablabla , conclusion , school ws okay . haha . i ws not in the mood fr joking today because as nzm said , im having my period and org2 period bkn mmg pelik ke ?? okay nzm (: then went back home , no food :( ate a banana . hee those bananas looks like .... :) naughty ! haha . okay wtv :p then went upstairs , bathed and here i am , onlining without a permit . hee . tonight there's a footie match between MALAYSIA vs. CHELSEA . haha . gelap ah malaysia ! i BET malaysia kalah 34-0 . sorry , its not that i am not supporting my own tanah tumpah nya darahku but omg please , they're profesional players la syg . soo , hilman's plan is to go watch footie at makbul and skip tuition :o hha . we'll see if the devils on my side or angel . hee . i bet the devil ! omg omg dosa ! haha .

okay now this nzm is emo-ing with me . cantek lah ! grr . ske hati you la . nnt i dh ada mood i pjuk you . fr nw , pjuk yourself first . hm . okay guess wht ?? haha , there're this sabahan family living in my neighbourhood . haha . then , there're like 3 schooling boys and 2 girls . every morning me and my sis will pass by their hse and cm first2 i usha-ed them . haha . nw , they plak usha-ed me . cheychey . haha . boleh plak the guy who wanted my number ws my dua pupu's ex . ahah . that's from wht i knw la . hee . wtv . bak kata * slow ' scandal biar rmai , cinta biar satu ' :D agree ? hee

okay nw im going off and hit the sack ! haha , evening ! (:

SURAYA

2008-07-20T04:29:00.000-07:00

nothing to blog about actually but since i do have a blog so i MUST post one . haha . i just got back from parade and pelita . woaa busy weekend ! haha 13's iu day ws okay . better than 4 perhaps ? haha , no comment ! hm , it ws up until 9 something then gerak carlos mkn mkn mkn , seriously kuey tiow basah dia SUMPAH menggiurkn ! haha , okay . then blek rmah teyra . slept over at her hse till today then gerak summit and all . okay nw one lesson that i've learnt is finding a dress fr a function is seriously menyusahkn and memenatkn !! haha . hbes satu taipan dh pusing then pyramid pn dh pusing baru bley jmpa ONE dress ! fortunatelyy , the dress comel . haha ,

hm , nw im craving fr him ! haha , sgt lahh . aihh . wtv lah . bye then . mwa

misdemeanor

2008-07-17T00:58:00.000-07:00

okay i cnt quite spell misdemeanor elok2 soo bantai jela . hee , life ?? omg SUCKS . i did nt went to school fr two freaking days cz my MATA bwt hal !! haha cri psl btol ! grrhh , okay fine i still tk dpt my phone back and i dnt knw when will i get it . haih nw if nk kuar kne bwtrambut rockstarttp mata sebelah lah . haha freak ! nw nk pegi taipan lah maw lepak mcd then mpsj then old town cz i am soooooo craving fr their hazelnut coffee ! hee , toodles !

MY RESOLUTION

2008-07-12T12:04:00.000-07:00

i will never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever like him ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever again !!!!!!
bcz ,, i knw he still loves her . so its kind of pointless for me .
NOT GOING TO GET MY HOPES HIGH RIGHT ?? guess so , hm wtv then . see i told you , life is unfair !

*just want to play safe to avoid myself from getting hurt AGAIN , love sucks . *

LIFE IS FUCKINGLY UNFAIR

2008-07-12T07:17:00.000-07:00

to start off my WONDERFUL week , my WHOLE FAMILY took my handphone bcz of the reason of i failed 5 subjects . screw it lah ! grrhh dh sebulan baru nk tarek apa de hal ?? eeshh ! then ... i made everybody this heart-shaped paper then wrote their names and mine . hee , i gave the ones that i love lah kn . hee . plus i gave meerul , acap , nazeem , that guy and that guy . haha , best jugak lah tgk dorang ckp " aww gle sweet (: "meaning with the smile yg mcm awwhh " haha" . mcm tu lah . hee , then at class cm gle heaven lah since he's making me happy . oh oh and !! i told fana and i ws like gle menggelupur takot fana bgtw tht guy lah kn ! hee , dhla fana cm babi rpat dgn dia . hee . okay so nw Soo Zi Jie , Rifdi , Benedict , Wai Leong , Fana , Chi Kuin , Teyra , Acap je yg tw ! haha . very awkward la kn to be around him then org cm pndg . haha . school's fun . seriously . aahh ! helmi went for an eye operation last friday , more likely to be said yesterday lah . hoh . tu laaaaaaa , ejek lg i MATA, haha . i hope you tk mati lah ! hee :p then i baru went fr cheer 2008 td . FUN gilaaaaaaaa . but tk sempat tgk shirtliff and dynamitez perform ! damn !! and guess wht ?! dynamitez tk msk semi ! haha , kesian gila ! they seriously rock okay ! omgosh tktw why dorang tk msk . adoi . but seriously ada routine yg bpak smart gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa . haha , nk msk cheer laahh !! grrhh . imagine me being a cheerleader ! omg gelap ah . haha , buta hbes mata smerang . hee . tp tk slh trying kn ?? haihh , tmr i kne siapkn the physics pnya paper !! grrhh ! tkde kje aku nk blaja je . hahahaha . DUH . omg stupid gle . stress aku !! hmmm , nk pegi skolaaaaaaa ! bored gila okay ddk rumah omg . hm okay !! ive registered fr kancil dh ! haha , so nw im officially a kancil student . hee , bangga bangga , cheh mmg tk ah . ee sma ngn nzm . damn . stress sial mamat tuu . grrhh . sama ah ngn acap ! cri hal doh . td time i ws in the car with meerul sme cz tumpang balek la skali frm bukit jalil kn , then nzm and friends kt car blakang . boleh plk nzm bkak tingkap and at that moment acap tgh ptg kuku , so technically tingkap acap kt kereta meerul pn tgh bkak la kn , ( omg sumpah ssh gle nk explain ! haha ) okay , then nzm cm ckp something , acap pn ckp this thing yg sumpah menyakitkn hati gila : " mne aku tw doh , dia dgr plk , tp yg penting dia bwt muka ah " eh buto !! ergh ! then my last nerve mmg hbas di mkn pijat la kn , smpai taipan planned nk mkn dgn dorang dkat strawberry but dorang smpai sna then i trus bla went to mcd . SUMPAH benci gle kt nzm and acap . haaaaaaa , sry i bgtw nama trus . eesh geram !! tk sngka dorang nk bwt cmtu okay . damn it lah . urgh . mengutuk dpan2 tkley bla . eesh . bwt aku stress . hee , pape lah mls nk lyn . i want my life to be without all those makhluk perosak . bwt stress je . cari hal !! grrhh !

omg sumpah i merapu and gle pjg . hee . wtv lah . i've missed blogging cm gle okay . then wtv i'll update you guys la okay . hee and thta'll be in a weeks time maybe ?? haha , xoxo mwa<3>

met a philanderer HAHA

2008-07-04T09:08:00.000-07:00

okay i've just updated my blog , hee nice or nooottt ?? haha . okay so i know i haven't updated my blog since like a week maybe ? omg i have no mood ! and this last two weeks have been a TOTAL bitch towards me . problems came showering me with pleasure ! damn . haha , but maybe after going to school cm lega sket cz SCHOOL ROCKS ! heeeeeee , some of you knws why and better to leave it tht way :D

weell , my fucking stepmum has been spying on me . tk hbes2 !! cut it out la bitch . bnci laaaaaaaaaa . if you wnt to say that " hani dh tk jd org cz dh rosak sgt " exscuse me ?? AT LEAST i myself tk drink ALCOHOL like wht you did when you were young kn ?? ey wht's your point of checking my page pn lah bitch ? you've got your life nw , so ? apa mslh lg maw cari ? babi laaa . im tired dh laa . sumpah ! get a life lh weyh !! its fucking sickening okay !! damn bloody hell . ish

school ws A okay today ;D i ws damn fucked up happy ! hee . to start the day , we had this assembly bcz our penolong kanan , Pn.Mahani , wants to get lost and take this pengetua pnya kursus or something . hee . okay Datin Robiah cried cm gle memalukan !! haha , then Pn.Mahani nk gve speech , she cried jugak la kn obviously . hha . then ada this form 5 guy , saiful ran to the stage and gave her A tissue . haha sekotak trus la bang :p then ran back to ruang legar . woaahh , comel ! haha . tashaaaaaaaaaa :p oh then after that , we went back to class and as usual laa tkde teacher merayap laa . haha . otw to tangga nk naek ats . HE passed by and cm BULLIED me . haha kerek you bwt kepale i saket HAHA . and dia cm ohh sorry sorry !!! , haaa tw menggelupur :p okay then naek ats , met tasha and teyra . i greeted them with a wwiideeeeee smile on my face ! haha , cool kn ?? dorang cm gle pelik ngn my attitude . then story kt teyra bru she understand . well , mybbygirl kn ? hee . then , masuk class kjap . lepak-ed with zi jie ! hee , i like laaa . i mean to lepak with him lah . he sgt baek !! goshh , i told him abt my crush plak . and he ws soooo supporting ! hee . BUT he said that this guy yg im admiring tu tk cute and suro i amik the other one . haha Soo Zi Jie !! ingat i hot sgt nk maen pilih2 ?? haha . tmr is 13's open day . aandd i am the 'NEW GIRL' sooo no need sgt fr me to go lahh . hee . td time after recess we had BM and ushamathy (you usha dia , you mathy HAHAHA) cm gle garang cz sme tk siap karangan ! haha , sorang2 kne mara . rifdi kne tin kosong , helmi pn kne tin kosong i think , johan kne kerbau . haha fana ws like sooo angelic thn tk kne mara . heeeee . helmi kne sit outside cz ada laa something dia bwt . haha , lastly he kne sign the BORANG SLH LAKU . bcz he said "ckgu ! saya suka tgk porn ! " last2 kne tules sbb ckp BAHASA PORNOGRAFI . ahahahahahahahahahaha ushamathy pls !! omg !! haha . VERY funny ! then when everyone dh kne got mad to , Zi Jie and Louis covered me with their big bodies cz i 'bdak baru' haha . teacher tk perasan then i boleh sit down . PLUS i ws forced to say that i love zi jie and louis ! haha , i do love them !! hee . then i ws damn bored i cut this paper yg cm sgt cantek to this heart-shaped paper , SANGAT CANTEK ! hee the heart ws gemok okay . hee . clrd it to pink then bg helmi cz dia gdik nk . haha stpd buffalo . time balek cm best agk ah , said bye to both of them (((((((((((((((((((((: hee ,

got tuition today , BUT . haha only god knows . hm planned to change to kancil but see how it goes lah . haha .

im super duper bored nw and that is why i am posting a loooong blog . aha kind of superb fr me to do tht since i'm kind of turning to a lazy-ASS nowadays . hee . normal la tu :p

okay he just went online :( sad history

baby got back !

2008-06-30T06:58:00.000-07:00

damn , i hate myself . i am this close to accepting him . im sorry if i've let you down . maybe i havent . but i will . i love you but i knw this is fr the best . im so so sorry . hm life has been a bitch towards me lately . soo i have no time to go online and post a blog telling you ppl abt my life . no time ! hoh . friends are great ! love ? fuck it . urgh , confusing !! damn damn . nothing much to tell you ppl . its just that dnt be suprised when ihave a news to tell you guys . it'll be quite shocking to most of you guys . im sorry , so so so so sorry . i love you

crisis bdoh

2008-06-28T08:53:00.000-07:00

fuck you la weh . cri psl . wtv la b****** . go fuck yourself happily . eesh . crisis is finally crashing me and bringing me down like HELL !! this is the time of my life when there'll be LOTS of problems that'll break me . JYEAH !! loving it to bits . duh wtv babi . mls nk update bnyk2 . lufkirlahsndri !

pon bolehh

2008-06-23T00:06:00.000-07:00

okay to start off my day . my cat died . :( hmm thn nw tkde spe lg nk bite our legs . yesterday ws the worse day ever . omg only god knws why . i dnt knw why bt everything seems so bad and it is making me to feel down cm gle babi okayh ! urgh pnat lah . im tired of this life shit . im sick of it . everything ! sometimes i even cnsder of dying to make things better , but tk taubat lg heh tkley mati lg hee . nw i dnt hve the mood fr blogging bt i am psting ths blog to gve the readers some knowings abt my life . hm , seriously im in my downs nw . shit .

from this moment

2008-06-20T00:04:00.000-07:00

okay !! fr the first time in my blogging history , i am posting a blog from teyra's hse ! haha . im sleeping over at her hse cz her parents went back to kedah bcz her nenek died , inalillahiwainalillahirajiun .. al-fatihah to beliau (: oh thn here we are just the two of us in ths hse , party like a rockstar lahh apa lagi !! hee , oh thn today i went to SMK USJ 4 to pick up my peka and results with 'the gang' haha . omg sme ckp i kurus !! woaaa mmg tk ahh ! ahah hugged samira , sara , shaz and effy cm org gilaaa !! aw gilamiss dorang oh !! sad sad hm , nmpk tht cpl !! aww smoga kekal ke ank cucu yerr , HAHA :DD thn cm jmpa gle rmai org okayh ! hee . after that we went to syed 8 fr breakfast then balek lepak-ed at teyra's hse . sumpah fun gila nk mampos !! haha BUT dorang bwk lari my phone ntah pegi mne cm th papee :p gilaa , mmg best gilaa lah . long story short , i had fun (: i actually like youu . haha jgn ckp banyak aa ! grr . oh thn nw tgh tnggu nk 4.15 cz nk gerak JADIBES ! haha , thn thn AC !! hee foos weyh foos ! foosball is quite a fun game lah okay ! hee . i admit it nw . tmr teyra's parents coming home . soo tonight lah party like a rockstar !! hahaha , ala but they're goin to hartamas cm ape je . kata ah g club !! adoi tk ajk !! ahhaa :p okay lah nw the weather's like uhhh it's going to rain cm gila je so better off lah , mwa xoxo <3

stressful !!

2008-06-17T23:49:00.000-07:00

urgh ! wht a life !! hm , first i had THE table talk yesterday and it ws horrifying ! fr start it ws nt abt me at ALL ! me and nazeem sat thre cm org bdo then came up abt ME pulak . adoihh , thre came out abt him and him and bnde BDOH !! urgh , wtv . then after everything dh settle , we went back , PETANG pulak got stpd drama , cantek !! urgh , tk psl2 i kne lg !! eyh pls lah ! tkpe lg , kluar pulak abt i made a BIG mistake because he ws abt to confess last night bt i blew it ! sheesh , hear me , im nt putting any hopes at all okayh ! not one ! you were the one who ws sooooooooooo eager to match me up ! i dnt need yr help with my love life . but it doesnt mean tht i am nt appreciating yr help . i do , its just tht ill love who i wnt to love , hm . my current problem nw is i cnt trust ANYONE ! nt one ! i knw nobody cn help me . wtv lah , gle bnci je evryone . keep stressing me up yah , you guys are doing a GREAT job . congrats ! duhh , hm .

school ws BOH-RING ! but then came chemistry . haha we did an experiment and cm bdo gila doh ! haha , yan ling and her friend (okay sorry i tktw cmne nk spell your name , let alone nk sebut pn tkley ! hee ) yg conducted the experiment , then we used lithium and burned it la apa la , the ckgu dh ckp dnt put it near the bunsen burner bt they cm crack ke pe ntah bwk kuar the BURNING lithium kuar while the bunsen burner tgh ON lg kt sblah . haha , then an explosion happened . mmg best gle ah ! haha , i ws right thre pulak ! kne my back ! cm best !! haha , mmg lari depan ketakutan lah kn . all the students ws like , shocked gila babi ! haha sumpah funny !! highlight of my year ! hee , okay i slept like two times today . eesh , why la ?? kt 4 tk tdo pn tw ! fatigue fatigue ! haha wtv , went back home with hilman and his sister . okay i ws sooooooooooo tergamam dgn his sister pnya driving okay ! haha i think ill be getting a life insurance before nk naek ngn his sis , hee bt anyways , thanks sgt sgt sbb sent me home . thanks sgt ((: nw tgh nk bwt research abt the definiton of life fr my oral english tmr ,aih . okay then , ive finally gained my 'alone time' fr the time being under some reasons that i cnt mention here (: soo currently the time is 3:04pm . im here thinking wether sleeping is a good idea fr me nw since ive been sleeping in class lately . gosh , OR maybe jogging in the afternoon ?? gaahh malas gilaaaa BUT i knw ive gained a few kgs ! shit la i knw im fat ! hee , so wht ? dia syg jugaakk :pp

hah !! abt him ! omg ! stress lah lagiii !! hm , my friends kept pressuring me and i dnt knw wht to do . samira said do anything that'll make me happy . okay fine bt ntah la , haih . he sent me a looooooooooooooong text msg yg sgt convincing okayh ! sumpah agk cair lah ! haha , bt after 5 minutes dh freeze balek since mama bwt panas je suro bwt ni la tu la , potong mood btol ! haha , i love you okayh ! thats it ;D

cater to myself

2008-06-16T03:25:00.000-07:00

okay like omg i am in a hell of a stressful time in the moment ! annndd i dnt quite knw hw to deal with all of this rght nw . okay TO BE HONEST , i like and LOVE ths guy okay . i knw most of y'all knw who ths guy is bt fr the rest , lets just keep wondering shall we ? haha okay sambung , i love him lah , bt not love love LOVE him like madlyyyyy , no . i syg him and i care fr him . BUT somehow i dnt knw why does everyone keep telling me not to get caught up with him and when i ask them why they just kept quite . DAMN ! i used to keep thinking this way before i met him : JUST KEEP SCANDAL-ING WITH ANYONE BUT IF I SOMEHOW FIND SOMEONE THT I WNT TO AND I DO LOVE , I WLD WNT TO TAKE CARE OF HIM AND BE FAITHFUL TO HIM . erk agk jiwang bt yeah tht ws wht i thought i wld do . bt nw ? i am confused like hell ! haha , pretty pathetic bt uh huh . i am confused ! okkay , one of my bestfrnds said tht he knws how to treat a girl right and he shows his love in a peculiar way , haha okaayy babe ! i got you :p i knw , hm . well , lets just see wht'll happen tmr and the next day and the next day and the next day . haha , STRESS !!

tmr i'll be having my FIRST table talk ever !! owh shit !! well technically i dnt knw wht is the kene mengena between me and the real problem thre , you see . tkde kne mengena langsung !! bt ntah la , dh dia pnggil kne jela pegi . adoii , ppl keep asking me abt hw is 13 , and wht's it like and which is better , 4 or 13 ? okay let me get it clear once and fr all , HONESTLY , 13 is much much much better than 4 , not to be rude or wht nt . bt seriously , 13 is bigger , CLEANER , friendlier , mre matured , and they knw hw to treat a person rght . seriously , i hve never regretted my decision of shiting school thre , BUT then again i cnt deny tht i do miss my old friends , well they're nt my old friends ! they're my current friends still ! gosh wht am i talking ! babesyy sorry ! i rinduuuu sgt kt korang ! hope bley hang sme2 oh ! :(( nk nangess , hmmm .

well kt 13 i've gained new friends , nk list them all ! hee , dorang bestt :))) hee dorang tuu : omg okay rmai tp serious dorang best ! :)))

my mid-term results ?? : SUCKS !! urgh i hate my brain ! why tkley upgrade pndai sikiiiiiit je lg ha ? omg org dh study tw tk ! appreciate the effort pls ! why tknk msukkn sme ilmu ha ? urgh dnt make me destroy you okay brain ! sheesh ,,

haish , back to scandally ? : I LOVE YOU . like hell , seriouslyy

bbe

2008-06-14T06:17:00.000-07:00

okay i knw tht it has been a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time since ive posted a blog .. hee been busy maa . haha , with school and a new boy ? haha , yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :p poyo poyo , okkay my new school ? omg such a relieve ! the ppl thre are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sweet and nice . very friendly and MATURED . pls , haha :D soo ive obtained a GREAT new life , thanks friends . and that doesn't mean tht i frgt my old frnds okay ! never ever ever ! i love them too much . hee . okay bt still there's SOMEONE who's been messing arnd wth my frnds okay . back off la bastard ! urgh bdoh . wateber ! gaaha , hm results ? OMG , tkya ckp ah hha , MEMALUKAN ! hm today is someone puny birthday HAHA so ? okay wateber again . hm going off to teyra's btw . bye lah , hee mwaaaa <3

haha yay !

2008-06-06T11:00:00.000-07:00

wey la knp ? suka tk pic tu ? haha . cun kn ? jgn la maraaa , HAHA . bdo gila . proved tht you mmg slalu check page i . aww tht's sweet ! thanks hoh syg ! bullshit ! haha blah la wey . suda la . suka la i nk bwtpe . you asl ? ee poyo sumpah la kau org . ergh sumpah gila disgusted doh ngn korang SATU GANG . cm sampah ! aww jgn terasa eh .. haha , okayokay wtv . aih tmr summersplash !! heee . bestbest . jm jm la kwn ! hee . OH and you all nk tgk pic tu ?

nk besar lg ? hahahahaha

hm

2008-06-03T12:33:00.000-07:00

okay nw its 3.3o in the morning and i cant sleep . damn it . hm . and guess wht ? i miss him , fuck ! an ? i dnt knw la . i dnt thnk it cld wrk out . urh i hate hate hate my life . im experiencing a super bored holiday by staying at home ALONE whle everyone is out working . darn . i wnna go out plss . and hm i HATE ths guy yg very the selfish ! urgh thank god im shifting school soon , gosh cnt wait to go to my new school and start a new life . hm boredom is slowly taking over my life ! sheesh , i wanna meet my frnds ! ESPECIALLY teyra ! urgh in the urgency need of her ! gosh , nw ive noticed tht im slowly drifting away frm my old frnds , hm . bt i knw tht im nt doing anythng abt it . well they too are not doing anything abt it . so watever la . haish . shit ! i cn feel the emptiness ! gurhh . well take it away frm me pls ! i hate it ! omg im sad ! okay honestly ? im feeling down and i dnt knw why . shit . wtv lah , bye

this is the life ,

2008-05-31T10:59:00.000-07:00

okay i just got back from genting . i am exhausted like hell ! haha , BUT it ws all worth it okayh ! hee because ? aww tht cute guy ! hee me likey ! haha okayokay . first to start my WONDERFUL week off , hee , i sleptover at teyra's hse fr three days :)) we had fun ! i met amirul , syamil , meerul and acap and allia and zikry ! haha they were all wnderful and friendly ppl . PLUS annoying ! haha abaanngg , knp abang ? haha . funny funny . oh thn teyra sleptover at MY place bcz of the genting trip . okay thn saturday arrived we went to genting . planned to find some chakus ahaha . found one bt we're like FOUR ppl . nk share mg tk ah ! last2 dpt kt ME ! hee . sukaaa , he's cute ! ngee , okayokay stop angau-ing ! haha thn time lpak ngn frnds kt darus kne plk kacau ngn ths mamat , haha cute bt involved ngn stpd stuffs la . slack je . haha wtv thn . bwt scandal bley ah , haha . aihh . took loaaddss of pics dkat genting . hah mmg smpai nk meletup lah camera ! ahaha i dnt thnk i cn post the pics up cz banyak sgt !! gahaa . tgk kt ms shj lah yer ? (: well , nw tgh texting ngn the guy yg amat amat COMEL lah hee . sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :DD okayokay lah byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee mwa ,

im a nerd , okay

2008-05-27T00:31:00.000-07:00

sounds weird but yeah , im wearing glasses .. and i look tremendously fugly ! haaaaaaaa bencii ! but i am only going to wear it when needed , hha needless to say i am not a geek at heart . be thankful for that yah , HAHA . well , went to mydin and SERIOUS beli barang dgn BORONGNYA haha . sangat RAKUS eh syg ? ;p well , serious cm GUDANG ahah . post up pics jela malas nk yap banyak banyakk ,

ni masuk kilang terus ! HAHA

kn ? haha

tht ws not all ! ahaha trust me , cm nk bkak kedai runcit je

okayokay thn me cam-whoring out of boredom ;D

okay so i knw i look ugly , SO ? hee . okaylah ! byebye , ;D

i think im in love AGAIN

2008-05-26T02:38:00.000-07:00

OWH SHIT !! GOD NOOOO ...

i cant face this type of things no more ,, it hurts ! hm , moreover WE , meaning tht guy and i agreed tht having a cpl is just a waste of time but thn again , why is he being so nice to me ? omg , he seems like a nice dude but i dont knw !! urghh , i HATE this kind of feeling ! i really do ! he calls me every now and then and EVRY SINGLE TIME I KEEP FALLING IN "okay like je dlu eh , love blm" WITH HIM , OMG ,, okayokay i admit , I LOKE HIM . shit noooo !! uhh , i mean he's the kind of guy whre he keeps his cool je and ALSO , he loves to joke , which attracts me ! ohhhhh noooooooooooooooooooooooo .... i dnt wnt ths to happen plsss ,, because you knw why ?? i once LIKED ths guy bt he's the scandalous type of guy haha , soo cannot go lah ! aiyo but i dnt knw why somehow i KNOW tht this current guy is the type of a loyal one . OMG tk sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .. tk larat nk gve commitment lg dhlaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa SERIOUS . everytime if im loyal to tht person then i'll get SHIT in return , and im SICK of it already ! hmm .. wel'll see what happens to this guy then , wish me luck guyss ;D

*BTW , PLS DO GUESS WHO'S THIS DUDE THT IM TALKING AND LIKING ABT ;)

i NEED a vacation

2008-05-26T01:32:00.000-07:00

a vacation meaning from my family ! omg they are soo getting on my nerves ! ESPECIALLY my sister , OH i mean shanieda . i dnt have a sister ! urgh FCK YOU LAH WOMAN . okayokay yesterday ws quite funny . we ALL watched "bring it on : all or nothing" . haha by saying "ALL" wa including mama and abang ! haha . thn in tht movie they used the IM language , fr example "WTF" , "IDTS" , "IMYA" and all sorts , HAHA . then after the movie we went to kopitiam fr supper and we talked using the IM language , okay first it ws between us siblings la kn , mama dgar and gelak je . we used like "HL"-HUJAN LA , "GB"-GI BAYAR , "TM"-TAK MAUUU . haha . then mama nk join mama ckp , "UL LA " -UYIE LA LA ? hha it ws supposed to be UYIE LA , bt ntah mama saket kot , HAHA kuang ajaaa woa . em em then balek rmah , all those working ppl went to sleep bt all us BURUNG HANTU satyed active HAHA , i bought supersavers and called teyra syg ,, hha planned abt our sleepover . iloveyoulahminah ! thn called nazwan bt dia dkat darus so mls nk kacau .. haha after tht to fnish off the minutes i called aris la kn , he's the only person yg AKAN lyn my calls bila2 je hha , only if i yg call dia lah , he jarang je call *EMOEMO , hha . okay thn slept at 5 , woke up at 2 something trus switched mode jd BIBIK MODE , haha i washed the dishes and lipated the kainS la , aihh . so nw im hungryy haha waiting fr abg to bring back nasi goreng cina and also fr HIM to reply my txt msg , aihh , bencii scandal !! :(( aihh , ntah . hha *OKAYOKAY DIA DH REPLY ;D , hm NO COMMITMENT PLSS , haha well . ha maybe wednesdayy ni nk kuar with amirul !! ;D you janji nk blanja i movie kan ? hha sayang you woaaa :p jkjk tp tp nk sleepover rmah teyra , carlos yeh ? haha toodles thn mwaaaaaaaaaaa <33>

lies tht ive believed ,

2008-05-21T23:39:00.000-07:00

this is a few text messages that a liar has sent to me a few weeks back , DARE TO BELIEVE ?

i close my eyes at night wondering whre wld i be without you in my life , everything i did was just a bore , everywhre i went seems i've been thre before , but you brightened up for me all of my days , with love so sweet , in so many ways i just want to stop , and thank you baby , how sweet it is 2 b loved by you =)

Sent : 5-May-2008
02:21:20

such as ? alalala . . yang , jgn la cmni . sorry baby . . anything you want me to do , i do . . anything you want me to dgr , i dgr . . sayang , i love you mre than myself . . .

Sent : 4-May-2008
23:20:45

owh its on 4 may and at 0515

Sent : 4-May-2008
05:16:44

i truely , madly and deeply in love with you . . .

Sent : 4-May-2008
01:26:56

omg okay to be honest , YES I DID FELL FR IT . hw stpd ws i ? aihh , okay he said tht to me bt in LESS THAN A WEEK , he told my frnd tht his feelings fr me is like "chipsmore" , meaning kjap ada kjap tkde . like WTF la kn , haha stpd la wey . you knw wht ? actually aftr cpl ngn you pon i trus fkir nk break dh cz you knw why ? dh NO SPARK , uhh bt i ws still clinging on to you thinking tht IF i tell you tht , i'll lose you and regret abt it . bt i heard tht when you were still in a relationship wih me you held her hand , haa dnt ever thnk tht i will nver fnd out abt it okay . im nt stpd and i hve frnds in your class okay . GOOD FRIENDS . and suprisingly i ws nt suprised to hear tht and i dnt feel a thing . and when you told me you're going to hyper wth your FRNDS , yea i believed you and maybe tht ws true bt going to pharmacy with HER ? haa you cnt lie to me lah pls . anndd nw you hve a new gf and wnt to show her off to me ? DEY , tk HERAN pn lah !! i knw she's the "rebound girl" , so i dnt mind and i dnt care , haha . i'll leave 4 anywaayyy . so be happy with her and you'll never see my face again :)) happy ? yeaa i knw , me too . omg pls lah jgn gelabah sgt okay ? menyampah la tgk hha . pls , and do you knw hw my feeling is like nw ? omg HAPPY and EXCITED , i mean i cnt wait to meet new ppl and FRESH FACES . toodles :D

goodlife

2008-05-21T00:23:00.000-07:00

ohh my life is kinda being a BIT better nw (: yay ! oh haaaaaaaaa EXCEPT the fact tht i knw im SOOOO going to fail addmaths , SORRY Pn.Ananthi !! :DD i love you bt i jst dnt quite get addmaths haha .okayokay . soo yesterday i went to ppd to do YOU-KNW-WHT hee , the results coming out tmr , OMG cnt wait ! i so so so hope tht it'll be approved by whoever lahh :)) okayokay , ALSO , tmr im having pjk , sivik and maths2 paperS . hee EASY PEASY , wahhwahhhhh :0 hah terer sangat lahh ! oh oh cnt wait to get ths shit over . thn cuti and start a new life (: its finall guys , nobody's goin to stop me frm having MY new life . haihh okayokay . went to samira's place aftr ppd's .and mmg kegilaan kami terserlahh haha . we took loadsss of pictures ! omg haha thn tdo bkn nk blaja !! :DD

OKAY SUMPAH TGN SAMIRA !! :d

AGAMA ISLAM yeaaaaaaaaaaa :D

haha syg samiraaaaaaaaaaaa , oh thn .. balek kt dlm car cam-whore ngn MAMA plk , :p

haha , pretty interesting day yah ? bestbest , :D well nw im quite sad to leave them all but this is fr me and me onlyy . god pls help me get through this with much patience and happiness , thank youu (:

bless you all , hha :D

boom boom

2008-05-18T10:08:00.000-07:00

NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF A GOOD FRIEND ,

yeaaaaaaa its TRUE ! haha , okayokay stop the yappin and start talking , welll ... today went to sunwayy bcz of shasha's phne haha . stpd phne ! MENYUSAHKAN ! uhh thn bought those fat DONUTS ! omg they do make me FAT haha . well .. came home and my auntie's already here thn like hug hug cm org gilaa haha dorang bestttttttttttttttt !!!!!! we played UNO and ate . i'll put up the pics later bt bt ze DONUTS ? ohhh you guys cn see the process of me getting myself FATTER , HA HA .

i mean , look at the donut ! and we still have like 4 of them ! shit , haha. well tmr ? oh shit , kne studyy .. waaaaaaaa ! when will this tortureous life be over ? god oh god pls take them awayyyy :D haha oh well , its fr the sake of ME ME and ME ! im nt going to get married pon kn ? haha sooo just thnk tht the moneyS tht im going to obtain frm wrking hard is just fr me and my adopted child named SHAFIQ DANIAL (: my babyyy . see tht's my plan . not going to get married bt getting an adopted child and raise him by my own and making sure tht he'll take GOOD care of his girlfriends and his future wife . haha . so wht ? got a problem with my imagined life ? haha FACE ME thn . i'll be happy enough to consult you through my planned life (: well better than having A boyf bt being treated like SHIT . rght ? i mean , its better to lead a simple life and EXPECT LESS FROM EVERYONE . rigghhtt ?? haha i dnt mess up anyone's life and they dont mess my life up . simple as tht , i hve my family and my oh so lovely frnds . SO ? haha . PLAY THEM BOYS , shall we ? :D

guys are big jerks

2008-05-17T05:54:00.000-07:00

serious !! they suck like hell !! guys guys guys , blablablaaaa hha . they lie , they cheat , they con . they'd do ANYTHING and EVRYTHING for the leisure of their own . and im SICK of it . okay nw im talking to the guyss , NW NW HEAR ME , if YOU guys think tht you cn get evrything tht you wnt , you are SO WRONG ! hear this , girls aint tht stupid to fall fr all your lies , pls ! dnt treat us like we're nothing okay . yea you cn play us around bt THINK , we cn also play you . bt thn again , if we play you , you'll call us BITCHES , WHORE or even SLUTS . thn maybe you too deserve the name BASTARDS , JERKS and ASSHOLES . am i rght ? dnt thnk tht girls are nt capable of doing those thngs tht you always do .

you cnt blame me fr thnking abt you in tht kind of a perception because EVERY guy tht i knw screwd up . and i mean , CHEAT and LIE and ABUSE and all those sorts . thn you cn figure out why do i thought of them tht way ! all my life i have NEVER met a guy whch ws decent enough to make my life happier than it already is . all my frnds , frm wht i've seen , have never been involved in an HONEST and HAPPY relationship . tht made me thnk , why shld i ever get myself involve in this kind of crap ? bullshits ? sometimes i even cnsidered of nt getting married because it'll just screw me up . so basically " LELAKI HANYA MENYUSAHKN DAN HANYA MENYAKITKAN HATI PEREMPUAN " and its trueee . eee , i personally HATE guys ! (and tht doesnt mean tht im nt straight OKAY ) its just tht , why cnt i get a good guy tht'll make my life perfect ? aihh , i pledge tht i wont be involve in a relationship 'till im 23 UNLESS if he is a really nice and truly a devine asshole thn i'll cnsider :p . and hold on to tht cz im SERIOUS . enjoy (:

hey ! dont judge a book by its cover !!

2008-05-16T02:27:00.000-07:00

haha wey sumpah funny !! haha okayokay yesterday WE went to the counselling room cm SHIALL je ahaha , ada perang dunia ke2 , drama melayuu , drama thailand , drama myanmar sume ada ! haha i dh vogue vogue g skola tbe2 balek2 nanges ni ape de hal ? haha okayokay this is hw i looked yesterday aftr the counselling session ,,

okayyy , then ada lg afternoon session pnya nangesss and this is hw i looked , omg this one mmg horrible gila ah ahha

haha horror kn ?? okaayy , thn ptg tuu pegi tgk neo kakak omg sumpahh dia gila jakun ! ahah weyh keta JER ! lek ahh ahaha , thn snapped A pic (haha yeaa rght ) in her NEW neo , glbh bontot la kakak ! ahah

haa yesyes , tu jee yg terjadi ! ahah today ? uhh malaass nk cte la dey ! haah :p

mengapa kah ?

2008-05-13T00:57:00.001-07:00

hello fellow frnds ! hee , well ! i did est's and agama's paper today fr the MID-TERM EXAM , shit . hha . est ws okayy because it ws the info-transferring thingyy AND a 200lengthofwords ESSAY . omg ! i hated the fact that starting from form 4 TO form 5 , all ESSAY ! no OBJECTIVE BULAT2 . mygod ! why torture us huh hishammudin ??? huhu , okayokay agama ? all of US noisemakers sat in a group and copied like hell ! ahha , but towards the end of the paper EN.NIK HAMZAH came in and all of the copying stopped , SHIT . and guess wht ? our lovely and beloved EN.NIK HAMZAH said ' kamu dh gemuk , ' WEYH !! agk2 ahh !! hahaha , shit shit shit ! and and as alwaayyysss ,, ady ws like " HAHA tu laaaaaaaaaaaaa roti boom dua bjik lg ! " aahah siod ! uhh biar lah !

so so so , tmr i'll be having chemistry2 and est2 . OMGGGGG !!!! well , gtg and studyyy yah ! ahaha :p yeaaa rightt .. toodles ! :D

good morningg niggas

2008-05-09T19:43:00.000-07:00

"i cant imagine life without your love , "

uhh , i cn ! see , i dnt think tht we are living in a world tht is FULL with sincere and unconditional LOVE , duhh . its like BULLSHIT LOVE , thts wht we call it nowadays . hha never ever get yourself caught in ths bloody thngs because its never worth it . trust me i knw . well it may seem wonderful and delighting and HAPPY in the beginning bt at the end , it'll eat you up inside fr good ! huh , wtv boyS ! haa , they are so nt wrth it . well , so far , that is wht i think abt guys aa haha well , we'll just see who gets the BEST relationship first okay boy ? I DARE YOU ! hha :D

oh woooowwwww :D

2008-05-09T06:37:00.000-07:00

my life gila cool dh nw :D hha , freedom ! ahahah ,, well thats the topic frm my english pnya paper , hee and today pnya drama , i broke up with my boyf daaa , cool tk ?? :p hha , well plan nk single .. haha ya rght ! cheychey ,,, :D dhdh ,! tk lrat dh hha . well nw just focus on my studies , frnds and famiyyy knkn ??? hee baru la teratur sket hdup ! hha ,, tkyh nk fkir2 bout others pnya feelings . haha . well ,,, today ada exam physics and english1 , yess i knw english1 sounds easy bt i hve to write an essay abt SMOKING and a 350++ words fr the second one and its abt FREEDOM ;) hha , then the second paper ws physics1 , aaahhh !! i knw tht i'll fail physics ! haha , DUH . hha physics sucks la weyh , hhaa kn ?? spe agree ?? oh oh and dkat skola td ada drama melayu minggu ini ! haha , ada ke ths guy pkul perempuan ??? omg ... nononooo ... no good la sayaaanggg hha , ape la ! umm . td dinner kt MAKBUL wth mama .. then bdak2 tuition kt ctu hbes tuition kn .. then mmg cuci mata hbes2 ahh haha ! woohh hothot amat dehh ! aaa .. then met danny and raziman , dorang nmpk thn bwt bdo , mmg kne WOY la kn .. hha , stpd buffallo .. uhhh bsan laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa byebye thn !! :D

there are ups and downs in life

2008-05-06T08:00:00.000-07:00

dreams doesnt always cme true , hoh . hmmmm im cnfused like hell weyh ! ahhh bullshit lahhh , adoii . uhh hve fun jela dlu , dnt thnk tht i cn gve too much cmmtment currentlyy , hohoh . frnds frnds frnds , iloveyouguyslikeHELLlh !! hha , hm td time bio ada bwt experiment DOH . bestbest , hha . like wth i cn see the onion pnyaa nucleus ! WOWWWW ..... hahahahah , well smpai d sini shj deyh ? nytenyteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

the goodside of life is showing BTW , ;D

2008-05-05T02:06:00.000-07:00

happy to be loved by them ppl who loves me ,

ALHAMDULILLAHHHHHHHHHHH ..........

LOVE ppl who loves youuuuuu ((:

damn i really LOVE this song , :D

2008-05-03T10:30:00.000-07:00

Don't pretend you're sorry

I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
Girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay 'cause
You are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
'Cause I have known the safety
Of floating freely
In your arms
I don't need another lifeline
It's not for me
'Cause only you can save me
Oh can't you see
I can't imagine life
Without your love
And even forever don't seem
Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
'Cause you're the air
That I breathe

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
And baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love

Baby I can't help it
Keep me drowning
In your love
I keep drowning
In your love
Baby I can't help it
Can't help it no, no

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

i seriouslyy love love love this song ! i mean im repeating it over and over and over again lh ! hha , enjoy (:

backstreet boys-drowning

i have lived my life with you fr too long

2008-05-02T09:39:00.000-07:00

hm , hard to frget , pls understand me (: today ws a boring dayy hha . went out with my siblings , we had fun suprisingly haa . oh we went everywhere ! ahha well nt exactly everywhre ! hha hah ! my sis just bought me a pinafore ! hha beware schoolmates ! i'll be wearing it on mnday so dnt be shocked ! hha , well im sort of a stressed up plus happy person . again , emotionally unstable ! hha em . i still love him though , ever thought tht we cld evr be happy again ? hm . we'll see . enjoy

welcome to the goodlife

2008-04-30T18:45:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT PAGI MALAYSIAAAA ... see , it does nt take tht long ! haha , yeayea wtv . tnggu 1 mnth yea ? yes lh , pape pn lh . its okay fr me ! ngee . haha hm . today i woke up at 8.30am ! well i slept at 4 in the morning plaakkk . haha cool tk ? nk study la today ! wahhwahhhh ... haha . welll ... im curentlyy still in my towel , haha . havent eaten fr like 7 hrs ? shit ! i need food and like FAST ! gaaha , oh yea ! i wld like to post a blog abt my frnds , why i love them and why do they mark something in my life , they mean so much to me :D im sure yr frnds does mean tht much to you too rght ? hee

okayokay , starting off with my bestest frnd plus sister ;D

Nureffy Jesreel Abdullah

well , you knw why i love her ? hm she's a softspoken girl bt she's the bestest girl that you could ever find ! haha she's fun ! and she's been with me fr a year nw . we seldom fight , and that's a good thing rght ? she supports me with every decision that i make , and she's clean ! i mean , she's a good girl . and i'd do anything to protect her from doing any bad stuff , yeaa . cz i knw her mum and she sort of prefer effy to befriends with me . i love you lh auntie ! hee , well , simple sonclusion , I LOVE HER ;D

Samira bt. Tuan Hassan

okay , samira ? omg i cnt tell you guys hw i love her ! she's like myself , i tell her EVRYTHING , and by everything i really do mean everything . and she will NEVER gve out any of your secrets , her instincts is ALWAYS right ! haha thats why i love you babe :p , haha well she's always honest with me , seriously , she'll just say "asl you buruk harini ?" haha cn you believe it ? well i appreciate it dear , ;D i really do . i kind of feel good if someone says that to me fr once in a whle , haha . NT ALWAYS OKAY ! nono , haha okayokay back to her , she's damn nice and i am so damn lucky to have a friend like her , I LOVE YOU BABE ! ;D

Sarah Afiqah bt. Sanusi

okay this girl ? omg i had countless fights with her bt i dnt knw why we'll manage to get back and just say sorry to one another . haha . she's kind of my everything and you knw what are they ? well let see , she's my alternate mother , my counsellor , my frnd , my sister , my ENEMY hha , my teacher , my EVERYTHING LH ! and you guys knw wht ?! i dnt care if you wnt to call her KAMPUNG or whatsoever , i dnt fckng care okay ! if you wnt to call her anything then might as well just call me that too because i am her . get it ?! urgh , haha . i syg her okay ! so get it in your freaking headS !

Anis Nabilla bt. Abdul Razak

my syg nih ? omg she's soooo cool !! hee i love her weyh ! eventhough she's nt in the same school with me bt i cn say tht we're close . i cnt say it in words though . she's the kindest frnd tht you cld ever get . i mean like seriouslyy , bt she's a hyper hyper hyper girl okay , im warning youuu ;D haha , she cnt sit still in one place okay ! she'll be prancing arnd . and she'll bring you along ! haha , she's fun and she likes to snap pictures ! seriouslyy !! haha i love you lh syg !! ;D

Nicole Adeith Main (spelling btol kn ? hha)

ha this girl ? she used to be my bestfrnd's enemy bt somehow we're all bestfrnds nw , haha . okayokay . she's always thre fr me whenever i need her . cool rght ? dia tk pnah BSN dgar my whining abt him , hee . and she gves GREAT advices and they do work ! haha kn nicole ? i love hanging out wth her . hee dnt knw why ., she's actually my senior by one year . and she's in the same class with my ex . haha cool kn ? hm well she is my best buddy !

Amir Fareez b. ?? (i tk ingt sry)

he's my far far cousin ! he's damn protective towards me . although im currently in a silent mode with him bt so wht , he still mean something to me :D i love you lh brother !

and that's all my best frnds , all of them plus so many mre ppls were the greatest of all in my life , okay maybe i'll post abt them at some other time yea ? haha , fr nw this is all ive got . i appreciate them ppl , cheers :))

YOU ARE A DAMN FUCKED UP PATHETIC LOSER *duhhh

2008-04-28T07:41:00.000-07:00

OMG ! god is really helping me to get over him yea ? thank god ! it doesnt make sense though when i did have the heart to get over everything and just admire him AGAIN ! duh stpd buffalo ! why the hell ?? haih , cheap bastard ! ee poyo gilaa , dhla i knw the fact tht you are sooo trying to make me jelous ! haha disgusting shit , ee fkir hot ah ? haha wtv dude .i admit i am being all stpd bt i hve to actually treat my feelings yah ? hm wtv la you . you are so nt worth my time ! like duh la kn , haha stpd stpd stpd donkey ! and your ex is still in LOVE with youu . OMG AMAZING ! *uhhhh huh ? wow . haha wey stpd gila plak ur ex , i mean you left her fr me ! haha then dia bley lg lyn youu ?? haihhhh .. apa nk jd .. syg la katakann .. i mean , i hpe you're happy wth her , ........ err ?? haha yeayea serious , hope you're HAPPY wth her , hee . pe la . no time to think bout all of you guys yg btol2 waste my brain cells pnya energyy , kn ? hm , NEXT CHAPTER PLS ! hha ,

okkaayyy .. azim ?? haha dude ! i am so not your 'sayang' ! okay ? pls la , afik ? haha , ee dhla sombong ! pastu nk memoyo ? ngee , cheh cm byk guys la knon ? hm enjoy it whle it last , kn ? haha bajet gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa ... actually nw tgh crack nk mampos since fucked up stressed bout bnde bdo je ? haha , fkir sndri la kn wht the hell is the thing , huu . anndd , i gila LOVE My girly girls !! haha , (nickname tkley blaa :p) they all support me gila gila , i mean yg i tk expect pn gila supportive . man i love you nicole ! :p haha , gila . hmm tu aa kn , enjoy je my life while i cn with my family and frnds , just like wht che'nell said , just hve fun and you cn hve someone in your life bt they'll just be adding your happiness , rght ?! omg SOOO TRUUEEE !! haha , so boys , make sure you guys will just add my happiness nt take them away frm me ! haha :p and nw , hve fun je , boyf boyf ni MENYUSAHKAN sahaja , terima kasih dn selamat malam (:

i am a girl you knw ?

2008-04-24T09:28:00.000-07:00

duh ! haha , im bored actually plus super pissed off , i.ve posted a long post (well , nt THAT long lh ) bt somehow it didnt come out on my blog , stpd blogspot . gahaa , well , school ws okayy , nt interesting at ALL , haha , samira puasa today WAHWAH . haha , hah ! nw tgh super dizzy thnkng wht to wear to iuday , grr stpd pengetua ! shit lh . haha , plus cm tk sbar nk pegi battle of the bands since i just found out tht fazree ( my sis pnya ex ) is going to perform on tht day . haha , NIDJI - HAPUS AKU , cme cme support local bands ! ngee , well , gtg lh , nk STUDY , haha YA RGHT ! hee bye bye mwaa

guys ? L I A R S !

2008-04-23T01:16:00.001-07:00

hye hye helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :) greetings humans ! haha , today school ws Okayy , ngee bt i admit i slept through chems. class hha , naughty me ! damn i ws freaking sleepy and i dnt knw why haha , results of fatigueness ! cheh ! haha , went back home , eat eat eat , then txt txt txt :p haha and here i am posting a blog abt hw my wnderful day went , wnderful ? YA RIGHT ! haha , well , im kind of pissed off with mama since she's going to get abg's n76 and gve her motorola to me ?! oh hell no ! omg benci nyaaaa ... shit ! hate her ! huu nt so lh , just a quote tht i use when im mad at her , huhu . well nt fair ! its nt tht she's going to use the camera tht much ! eeeee shit shit shit !! tknk kwn smerang ! nk EMO ! urgh , huhu well ,toodles then , maybe the next time im going to post a blog then ill be using the DAMNED MOTOROLA ! urgh wtv mama ! TALK TO THE HAND PLSS !!

omigahhhh :o

2008-04-22T00:26:00.000-07:00

hahaha funny !! bru dpt tw he's trying to make me jelous ?! haha weyhh !! sumpah funny nk MAMPOS ! hmmm bored like hell weyh ! today the best cnversation i've heard ever ! here it goes ,

(di dlm biology class)

Pn.Norashikin : okay kamu sume ni adalah sperm dn ovum okay ,

nicholas (whle pointing kt amir) : haha , kau sperm
amir : kau ovum ! haha
me : hahahha bongok
danial : weyh , kira dlm air mani ada sperm ah ?
amir : yer ah ! *duh
danial : babi oh , kre aku dh bnuh byk ank aku lh !
me : :o wth ?! wtf ?! hahahahahhaah

serious bdo tk ? haha ngek doh ! hm , nw bru je lpas mkn . ngee bye bye lh (:

2008-04-20T14:10:00.000-07:00

im a december baby soo , here is my charachteristics . its freaking true . so get to know me yea (:

DECEMBER=BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous.
Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be
with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with
vision, yet complicated to know.. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and
soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating,
tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Stubborn and hard-hearted.
Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically
and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite
sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the
arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many
children. Hardworking. High spirited

2008-04-19T13:00:00.000-07:00

hyehyehye .... ;D haha today ? ahhhh bored like hell ! haha woke up at 3 ! goshh .. then he texted me , hah ! yay ! haha , then ate lunch at 4 sumthing which then he said that mkn lunch bila dh nk dinner dh , haha kerek ehh youu .. at night , i went out with shasharudin , ct and zul . haa bestbest , g mkn2 at naili's damansara (haha i mean SUMPAH tht place gila cool ;D) then round2 kl and went bapok-seeing . CULTURE SHOCK LIKE HELL WEYH ! i mean gila babi mantap ah dorang ! kalah i ! haha , tp in the mood of 'saket hati' la cause he tk reply IN ALL OF SUDDEN JE ! aihhh .. geram geram ! i mean , bygkn ttibe tk rply then next day ckp tk dpt my msgS ? ee jhat jhat ! tknk kwn sudaaaaa you mok ! hoh , its okaaayyy .. scndal je kn ? ngee , jgn pasrah weyh , jgn ! hha tkley bla . mm yesterday pn cm jln2 je , cm tkde hala tuju je . haha , weyh bsn gilaa !! aihh , okayokayla , byebyebye ...... ;)))

2008-04-16T03:14:00.000-07:00

hellohello (: hee . dh lame dh tk post blog knkn ??? boring lh online online niihhh . huhu my life ? beesssttt ... hee bt ada org tk puas hti with me doh ! ee tendang kang ! hesh okayokayla bt hah ! tday bestbest woa , haha only god knws why (:

2008-04-08T00:25:00.000-07:00

yayaya , hellohello :) just got back from school ! ngeh , super bored ! plus i ws super super duper hyper-ing at school , bdo i knw . haha , bt ntah , dnt knw why . bt it still hurts to see him la kn . haih , cm siod ! get over it sudaa ! haa , bt ntah , dh move on skiiiit kot ? haha , cool kn ? ngee . bored gila babeng la kn today . cm sial . haha , eyp eyp , jgn ckp sial , tk PROPER ! ngeh , missy missy !! ngee , miss who ? ntaaahhh . haha , dhdh ! lupakaannn !! bdo nya pompuans ! boo hoo ! ngeh , stpd . hm , today hw maths SAHAJA , best tk ? yay ! love tuesday ! ngee . eh eh , guess wht ? next mnday is ...... 140408 !!! haha , so wht la kn ? ngeh , meaningful SKIT la plak . haha , yea bt he doesnt care kn ? so why shld i ? omigahhh ( SAM ! haha ) smlm mmg stpd ! haha , i ws the stupidest of all la plak ! haha , last one je . then if nothing gk , MOVE ON PLSS ! haha bdo . dh move on ! ee hyper hyper ! haha , best gilaa .... dia text ! yay ;D hee , kay la , kay la . nk mndi dohhhh . bye to all the bears in the worlldd ;DD

2008-04-05T03:57:00.000-07:00

meaningful lyrics . should be heard by you-know-wht-happened-to them ppl , enjoy :)

ne-yo - go on girl

I can't get it back, but

I don't want it back, I

Realized that,
She don't know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
She at the bar getting drinks from many men
I'm in the house, thinking shes with her girlfriends
Just not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, man, I was open

I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

ciara - that's right

You can miss me all you want
But I'm not coming over
Tonight I'm doing me
I'll call you in the morning (that's right)
Hanging with my girls
Until the break of dawn
You can't tell me no
'Cause I can do what I want

nidji - biarlah

Biarlah ku rela,
melepasmu,
meninggalkan aku.
Berikanlah aku,
kekuatan,
untuk lupakanmu.

sara bareilles - love song

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

kanye west - stronger

You know how long I've been on you?
Since Prince was on Apollonia
Since OJ had Isotoners
Don't act like I never told you
Baby, you're making it (harder, better, faster, stronger)

boyz 2 men - end of the road

Although we�ve come to the end of the road
Still I can�t let you go
It�s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Come to the end of the road
Still I can�t let you go
It�s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,
You just don�t realize
You�ve never been there before
It�s only your first time

Maybe I�ll forgive you, hmm
Maybe you�ll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and i

Girl, you love me again like you loved me before
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don�t let me, don�t let me down

jason mraz - you and i both

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now,
Oh love, no
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore, mmm...
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

And it's okay if you have to go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, out of words.

maroon 5 - wont go home without you

it's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

vertical horizon - everything you want

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know

vertical horizon (jugak ) - best i've ever had

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

kerispatih - mengenangmu

Adakah disana, kau rindu padaku,
meski kita, kini ada di du-nia berbeda
Bila masih mungkin~ waktu berputar,
‘kan ku tunggu, dirimu

Biarlah ku simpan,
sampai nanti aku,
‘kan ada di sana,
tenanglah dirimu,
dalam kedamaian
Ingatlah cintaku,
kau tak terlihat lagi,
namun cintamu, abadi

element - rahasia hati

Waktu terus berlalu
Tanpa kusadari yang ada hanya aku dan kenangan
Masih teringat jelas
Senyum terakhir yang kau beri untukku
Tak pernah ku mencoba
Dan tak ingin ku mengisi hati ku dengan cinta yang lain
Kan kubiarkan ruang hampa didalam hidupku

Bila aku harus mencintai dan berbagi hati itu hanya denganmu,
Namun bila kuharus tanpamu,
Akan tetap kuarungi hidup tanpa bercinta

Hanya dirimu yang pernah tenangkanku
Dalam pelukmu saat ku menangis

colbie caillat - realize

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

[C:] If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

*that's all for now , yeaaa jewang ! i knw .. haha , bt so what ? kn ? okayy so nw ..
MOVE ON PLS !!

2008-04-04T20:37:00.000-07:00

heyyo !! hee . i've created a new ms accnt . yay ! haha . bored lorh . eyh you knw , hmm . ade org mntk cpl lorh ! hmm . waa tamau ! sheesh !! haha . dhdh . hm . dh about 1 week tk blog kn ? stress !! haha . nw dh reda sket lorh yay ! hm . still bored ! haha . bye lah then :)

2008-03-30T09:31:00.000-07:00

seems like you've moved on . hm . yea yea wtv la you . gla hurt tw . hm . pnat la pkir , you sng2 happy2 over thre while im fucking miserable here . wtv . i cn move on and maybe i will . shit . dulu i ws over you ! bt you came back !! why ? just to hurt me again ? hmm . im stupid , i mean i ws . i gla elok2 jaga nw , i tknk talk or flirt with any guys just to get you and only you on mind , bt wht fr ? you dh elok2 cmmnt with GIRLS je kn ? and maybe you pn dh text ngn girls , i tk reply guys pnya msg pn . okay so wtv la kn ? like you care pn . hm . pape la you . nk move on btol2 ? tk regret dh kn ? dh FINAL decision kn ? up to you . and dnt blame me nnt if i dh msg ngn guy laen , or wtv . i tnggu you , bt in tht time , you bestbest text , cmmnt with girl laen kn ? okay la you . bwt pe you nk , nk new life right ? you've got it . happy kn ? THEN STOP SHOWING YOUR FACE TO ME ! pls ! you nk move on then LET ME MOVE ON TOO PLS ! sheesh ! ni stock lalu my class pndg bwh , hug tgn ayed and wtv . why the hell are you doing tht fr ? fr fun ? sje nk bwt i lg miserable ? HUH ?! suka tgk i cmtu kn ?! eesh , wtv la you . IF YOU NK TNJK KONON YOU SYG I LG , TK PAYAH IF YOU NK TPU2 . well , tht's wht my frnds assumed la . okay cmni la , you nk move on and have a new life wthout me kn ? then let me have a new life too pls . avoid me if you cn . i'll let you have a new life tht you've always wnted . i'll avoid you . if tht wht makes you happy . i love you and i wnt to see you happy . well , preferably happy with me bt i thnk i cnt afford to make you happy . i mean i cnt make you happy . im sorry . if tkde i lg better kn ? okayy , i hope you dpt girl yg lg better than me . yg boley give you whatever you wnt and make you happy . honestly speaking , i still care fr you and i miss you . bt wtv . hm . i knw its no use fr me to be thinking tht way . bt wht the heck , its the truth . you nk listen kt your frnds kn ? they all suro you move on . yea i knw dorang yg nk cpl sebenarnya , bkan you . they're the one who's dealing with this relationship nw , nt you . dorang yg ade feeling syg tu , bkan you . yea yea . i thougth of it tht way too . hm . im nt going to make a statement tht i cnt live without you and im nt going to say tht i cn . hm . i pn tktw la . i knw you tk pnah nk bkak my blogspot , so i tules jela . all this while you fkir i tpu you kn ? nw i post blog behind you , if tu pn you nk ckp i tpu you , i tktw la . i tktw pe you nk . you've made it clear by SAYING tht you dnt wnt me in your life and you wnt a new life bt you're nt showing all tht . im tired of doing things to give the right impression of me to you while you dnt even care , i wnt you to bt sadly you dont . dhla you . nw you're playing a game tht im tired of playing . honestly ? samira and i cnt stop talking bout you . bt it ws all by coincidence . get it ? everything pn reminds me of you . and seriously , EVERYTHING . i ws intending to stop talking bout you the other day bt you lalu my class , i diam lg . then effy ckp kt i bout you . then diam lg , samira plak . haihh . i tktw how to frget bout you . its damn fucking bloody hard . heesh . i knw its damn easy fr you . dhlaaa ... pape pn , i still love you . i'll never hate you . and nw , pape yg you bwt pn hurts me . i hate tht , just like you've said . i hate tht i love you . i'll always love you and i'll wait . enough said .

2008-03-29T09:47:00.000-07:00

[Verse 1]
It's not about who's right or who's wrong
It's not about who's weaker or who's strong
It's not about who's innocent or who's fault
It aint really bout that kinda thing at all
It's not about who does it or done it or did it to who
Don't matter if the both of you lose
It's really not bout nothing excpet for me and you girl

[Chorus]
It's about drama and love and 'lationships
and when the going gets tough you deal with it
and you dont ever you never walk away from it
you hold on you be strong
It's about drama and trust and making it
if your somebody messed up you dig it in
dont let nobody come between you you just stay with it
you hold on and be strong
and hold on, yes you do

[Verse 2]
It's not about the stupid things that we say
Were always saying stupid things anyway
It's not about the secrecy of the lines
Girl everybodys gots a secret to hide
It's not about who was it who was she who's creeping on who
Won't matter if the both of us lose
It's really not bout nothing, cept for me and you

[Chorus]

Aint bout your pride
Aint bout yourself
It's bout the two of you and noone else
Aint bout the her
Aint bout the lies
Aint bout the crazy things thats running through your mind
It's bout the love thats supposed to last and never dies

*i love you and it still does hurts .

2008-03-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

you got it bad :(

starting off with , today . 280308 . ckup 1 year i knal aimeen . okay okay STOP . he wnts it this way . cnt say anything . :( well , today ? aihh . frustrating like hell ! naseb ada my frnds ada . at least ada la org if nk halang i frm drinking ajax fabuloso kn siti kn ? huhu . aihh . THIS IS SOO NT HEALTHY . bt i jst cnt help it . hm , today ada test bio doh ! haha . funny doh samira . aihh , alaahh . the rest , suma kt blog samira ada , i mean , wht happened at school la . ngee . hmm . see ? emotionally unstable ! dh gila ! haha . nw dh ade dua cats doh kt my hse . satu ABU :( shit . hm . satu lg mimi . betina ! gahaa . nw ABU tgh ddk dlm my kain . tkley bla doh ! haha , ngek doh . super gatal ! :p kucing je kottt . haha . mm . tdi ws the super seksa-est practice ever !! hm . it hurts lg . shit . he ws hmm . shit . tknk ah ckp . gla sdey je . hm . dia super comel . :| hm , nw gla bsan . mtv psg lgu gla bsan ! cm nk sman je mtv , huhu .channel v pn !! ee . cm nk bg pelempang . haha . today NO MOOD SGT . hm . bye then :)

2008-03-27T06:08:00.000-07:00

OMG . it hurts like a LOT . i tktw nk bwt pe dh . my hand dh sejuk gila . i feel like dying . he wnts to move on ! shit . damn it . okay nw mama dh naek ats . so im crying . omg omg . shit . waa ! he wnts to move on !! tk cya doh ! mamaaaa !!! sdey nyaaaaaa .. saket gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ............. he wnts to frget abt me ! shit !!!!!!!!!!!!! i tktw nk ckp ngn spe dhh .. omg .. he wnts to leave me gla2 dhh !!!! tkley accpt gilaa ! omg ... i gila syg dia weyh ! umm , dia tkley faham doh .. just cancelled my ms accnt . serious cnt accept . hm . the one guy yg i gila syg like hell just bwt decision tknk ade pape langsung dh ! omg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dh tmau cpl dhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aris ke tk aris , tmau !! shit la . stpd stuff doh . hm . its nt okaaay fr me if he nk move on bt i tkley paksa if dia dh hate me , dh tk syg and dh tk ska . well , bt just fr me , i tknk move on ! i WANT to think abt him . as a metter of fact , i NEED to think abt him . i still love him . shit . hm . bru je nmpk dia ptg tdi . nmpk dia , cry , then trus balek . hmm . if he nk listen kt frnds dia , then i tkley nk ckp pape . aihh . serious shit it does hurt . seksaaa gila doh ! omg . tk tkley bla . it hurts ! tk sangka i love him this MUCH . shit . i hate it dong ! benci gilaaa . omg .. hm , tktw nk ckp pe dh . maybe pn nk delete accnt facebook , frndster and blog . and if dpt asrama , i'll go . tktw la nk bwt pe dh . serious tkley pkir langsung . shit .im emotionally unstable . hm . nk bwt evrything yg bley fr jauh dr aimeen . thts wht makes him happy kn . i love him like seriously . hmm . thla . nk mati serious . nk mati !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ish . if lg one week tkde this blog meaning dh cancel blog la tu . bye korang lah . im too sad . im sorry aimeen . im really really really sorry . i tktw nk bwtpe dh nw . ive ruined it . hm . im sorry and i really do love you :'(

2008-03-23T09:23:00.000-07:00

just got back from kelantan and im fuckin tired . got through a crisis . aihh . cut long story short ,

i just broke up with my EX boyf and im nt that sad . he left me actually fr a LAME exscuse and at last , its all my fault . bt dude , i didnt regret saying all that because its true . cnt accept it ? NASEB AH . haha . wey , i love you la bt i knw i cn manage myself without you . you wnt to move on ? go ahead . wnt a new life ? silakan . guess im heading towards being single fr the rest of my life because i dh SERIK ngn guys yg suka LIE cm bdo . hm . ppl , dnt ask why , when and how . just get it in your head tht i am nw nt with him . and jpjp , aimeen , tell your freaking frnds dnt play with ppls feelings . i sumpah you all nnt sume rase pe yg i rse . hee . bt serious , i nk korang rse . hw does it feel to lose the person you love then knwng your past crush hs a feeling fr you when the person whom you love most lets you down . you cn play with my feelings bt i wnt you all to experience it . screw you guys ! you guys cn go to hell ! GUYS . haha . useless jerks . wtv ;D

2008-03-18T01:29:00.000-07:00

this blog is specially dedicated to the person named
SARAH bt. MOHD YUNOS

nw i wnt to ask you WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR BLOODY FUCKING PROBLEM HUH BITCH ?! why do have to keep checking on me ? apa mslh kau hah betina ?! you have already got what you want all this while and you're still nt satisfied ? eyh fuck off la ! if the reason is just because you are obsessed with us , haha . pathetic !! eyh babi ! pegi mati la kau badak gemuk ! fucker gla la kau . ee . go to hell . you wnt to open your big bloody mouth abt me to everyone ? go ahead . the hell i care ! if you wnt to go and tell or "advice" people nt to be like me , haha , like you are so fucking perfect ! if so i am OBSESSED with my boyf then so wht ?! is it your damn bloody problem ? at least im nt obsessed with someone else's HUSBAND ! haha . funny . you're just pathetic you knw tht . DAMN PATHETIC ! you're scared rght ? haha . i knw . just wait . you'll just wait . you think you're smart enough ? great enough ? haha . you think tht you're great just because you've got papa stuck to your fucking pussy ! you think i didnt read your text messages to papa ? such disgrace . you both are a sex-freaks . bj ? haha . blow job ? go to hell ! you guys are old fucking sex-maniacs ! tk sedar dri . ee . you wnt papa ? you've got him . so ? wht more do you want ? seriously you're pathetic and ridiculous . wnt to go and tell che na , che yah and you're fat bloody pig-alike sister abt my 'bad' attitude ? haha . go ahead , see if i care . abg and i have walked out of the house and we did not care abt you okayh ! so why must you go and bloody check up on us ? ee . geli la ! gla obsessed with us ! haha . you'll just see wht'll happen to you if your OH-SO-RICH husband is DEAD . you are so going to get it from us 3 siblings . wnt to act all angelic in front of che yah , che na , papa and everyone ? haha . wont be long la fat bitch ! we all knw wht you did . papa's stupid enough nt to realise all tht . you see , papa tw kau ckp kt abg cibai , pukul aku , seret aku , and all those stuffs , bt does he care ? NO ! what type of a father is that ? nw , just live with your fucking husband 'happily' and LEAVE ME ALONE ! get it ? i thought you are SOOOOOOOOOOOO good in english right ? haha . bajet je . eh g mampos la . ee . nympah glaa ! wnt to intimidate me ? haha . yelatu . just let us live happily without any news from you both damned people . cn ? i thnk nt . i hope you'll rot in hell , the place tht are meant for you . think you're so great , haha . funny . i feel like kicking you in the stomach nw . eesh ! fat ugly bitch . dhla PEMALAS ! gelak cm setan pontianak ! ee . disgusting ! you're a refuse ! fckng disgusting slave . you look like one . make-up tebal cm fuckng clown . fckng fat pig . muka cm setan . haha . its so embarassing to have a stalker like you . tk puas hti lg tu . ee . bdo gla la kau . dhla stakat diploma je . kje secretary . PATHETIC . nk kata " kalau mummy jd hani , dpt tuition cm hani dh dpt masuk oxford dh " HA HA HA HA HA HA !!! bwt lwk ? ehh , if you tkde duet cz your dad is just a POLICE , kalau dh RAJIN sgt tu paling2 pn masuk la UM . why didnt you ? haha . stakat UITM . eeuw . eyh , even kakak pn is taking her degree nw and mama is taking hers too . soo , actually , you do nt have the right to even TALK to them . let along hurt them . you did . bt you cn just WISH to hurt us nw . papa ? haha . sorry bt papa pn bdo . ee . papa dh hurt us ckup . you'd rather have HER than us ? your own genes ? wht benefits do you obtain by having her ? wht ? NONE ! dhla betina tu MANDUL ! you've lost all your children . cn you make one nw ? the one who is going to take care of you when you're old ? old enough to DIE ! cn you ? these children tht you've abandoned ? hmm . kakak loves you . a LOT . she loves you enough to even have the intention to take care of you when you're old . yea , she told us . abg ? i thnk so . bt me ? no . i've lived with you fr too long . and you've hurt me enough . you're my father , i did treat you like one bt you did nt treat me like your own child . who did you treat like your own children ? your nieces and nephews ? do you think tht they'll care abt you when you're ill ? no . you didnt cherish your own chldren . bt you're cherishing your SO-CALL-LOVELYPLUSANGELIC-WIFE . you worship her . hmm . do wht you think is best fr you . you're a genius right ? sarah ? haha . stpd mthrfckng bull . i hope tht your parents will die tragically . plus you too . go and fuck yourself .

*betina babi tu ? my fucking stepmom . she's a bitch . so mind my words .

2008-03-17T10:49:00.000-07:00

aww , syg evryone :D sume pn gila caring towards me . hee . my life is going quite well nw , thats all i guess . haha . its like 2am nw ! like wht the heck tmr's schooling ! haha , mls nk tdo la . aimeen dh tdo dhh . ngee , bye then :))

2008-03-15T01:03:00.000-07:00

im over it . im tired . i love you bt why the hell are you acting like a 3 yr old ?? i dnt knw wht the fck is your prob and SUPRISINGLY ,, im so fucking stressed up by this mthrfckng problem . i dnt knw when is all these going to end . im fucking tired . this is all bullshit tht im nt suppose to be fuckng handling nw . all those bullshits ?? fckd up reasons ! wtv .

*mind the language , im fucking pissed off !

2008-03-14T04:22:00.000-07:00

i dnt knw whts happening . abt wht's going on ?? i hate it . i love him bt everythng seems so uncertain . i hate everything , even myself .

2008-03-13T01:18:00.000-07:00

hyeee ~~ aaahhh . i am soo excited doh !! ngee ~~ kn anis kn ?? haha . for your information , tommorow is my 11th monthlyvrsrry !! ngee ~ bie , dh 11 mnths kte cpl kaann ?? althought there're bumps along the way bt we've made it jgak kann ?? weelll ,,, lg 1 mnth je nk 1 year kn baby ?? huhu . longest realtionship ive ever had la . sorry fr the kegedikness !! haha . im happy to be with youuu :)) aihh . love you la !! ngee ~ life ?? haha . im happy too !! everyone is happy in their on way . kakak ?? annoying !! haha . she's happy with her so-call-scandal !! haha . :p he's nice bt there're some prob la . BIG problem la actually . aih . abg ?? haha . he's okay ! weird , i knw . haha . i knw tmr he'll be pissed if he knws tht im going out . tnggu je laaa . mama ?? haha . she's FINE ! annoying as always . ahah .. and guess wht ?? she loves our new kitten sooo much ! haha . guess wht name did she gave the kitten ?? haha . ABU !! or is it BUBU ?? haha . weird mama ! :p oh yeah , anis ?? happy 3rd monthlyvrsry aite ?? ngee ~ i love you lah babe !! samira ?? dh dh la tu syg . jgn la like this kayy ... ngee ~ *sorry intermission , abg suro angkt kain then maen jp ngn abu hee . mood dh tkde dh nk post blog pnjg2 sheesh .* aihh . bored la nw . byee then !! :))))

2008-03-12T10:21:00.000-07:00

bored nk mampos ! unlike my bestfrnd anis , she'll only post a blog if she has something to say . every post in her blog has a motive . bt mine ?? haha . none !! no motive at ALL !! aihh . i mean she'll always has something to say . evryday ! haha . me ?? hmmmmmmmmm :s . aihh . 1mnth and 2 days more to go till my frst anniversary :) i love him . like seriously . aihh . life ?? nt quite good . bt then .. okaayy laaa . huhu . dhla . mls nk post long blog . no mood :|

2008-03-10T20:58:00.000-07:00

today alone d rumah plak . bosan glaa . well then , lets hope tht i cn go to ou tmr . OU ?! sam !!! gla gla jauh tu babe !! my money dhla super sikit ! tkla super sikit bt sikit ! heheh , rm2o . mne cukup ?!! transport syg ?? aihh . andd , maybe nk kuar g ou tmr .. then MY own plan nk kuar friday plak .. hee . guess why friday ?? 14th maaa ... bt tk sure lg laa . aimeen cm tk cnfrm bila dia bley kuar . bt DUH ! aimeen ?? tkley kuar ?? haha , bwt lawak !! ngee ~ jokin bie .. xD . haha . then dh ckp ngn mama "MA !! duet skola minggu nie KENE dpt gk !! TK KIRE !! " hee . nk jugak ! nk jugak !! ngee ~ *ehh , sat sat , nk g toilet :p* ..... *okay im back ! ngee ~" nk g tgk movie oh !! dh lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sgt sgt tk tgk movie ! SERIOUS !! last tgk enchanted . hah !! guess how long is tht ?! hmmm .. im bored laa . bye lh ! ngee ~ muahmuah . or mwaaa . hee ~

2008-03-09T21:01:00.000-07:00

fuck ! bosan , aihh . today cm emo2 day . babi btol ! mama tk pegi class today .. agk2 why ?? dh dh dh ! hmm . mamat sorang tu plak emo tk psl2 !! haha , sorry la i kerek ystrday . geram gla . well , naseb la . pdn ngn mka . sape suro bwt cmtu . HAH ! i dnt care anymore get it ?! nk emo wthout a reason ?? go ahead !! LIC ! your freakin phrase rght ? zzz , yours too rght ? aihh . biar la bie nk bwt pe . i thought ade audition today ? MENIPU GLA SMPI SKANG PN TK BGN LG !! gla ular !! ishk . pape la . nw im waiting fr mama to get ready nk kuar and beli goreng pisang (fried banana . haha .) and maybe will be browsing fr our cat's bed . mwahaha , cm bdo . katil kuceng !! gaa . well , no mood sgt nk blog abt anything today . sheesh . wtv la . bye :)

2008-03-08T04:17:00.000-08:00

lalala .. poyo poyo poyo !! ngee ~ dhlaa . mls nk bwt statement pape . well , some ppl ARE just plain stupid . im rght , rght ?? haha . you're funny .. aihh .. im bored like hell do you knw ? scholl hols hs started bt i didnt do anything fun at all ! hah ! stpd . plan nk g tgk movie laaa . bt dnt knw when . :| . and guess wht ?? we've a cat !! haha . so CUTE !! finally .. but nw takot mati jee . ngeheh . name ?? did nt figure tht out YET !! huhu . let me tell you sumthin , relationships are stpd . haha . bt i myself doesnt knw why i am involved in one . i love him kot , thts why . heehe . its too complicating !! based on my frnds's relationships , mmm , COMPLICATING LIKE HELL !! aihh ... relationships 101 . NEVER get yourself involved in a relationship if you are nt ready . serious !! i knw it sounds common bt its trueee !!!! think abt it !! pls do . :)))) . currently listening to ' m5-wont go home wthout you ' . sad sad song . :s . reminds me of samira's house . haha . aimeen la ! tgh nk settle prob sara and akmal , psg lgu tu . haha . kne mara sebijik wth me . " yg bie ni duk psg lgu emo2 skang nie knp ?! " . haha , " mne la i tw ! channel nie yg psg !! " hahaha . aannnd .. smeorang gelak ! haha . pe la bie nie .. ppl say tht we're a sweet cpl ! YEA RGHT !! haha . he's soooo annoying tw tk !! rse cm nk sepak je ! haha . and like omg !! tht day i ws lepak-ing wth aimeen kt pdg , while waiting fr mama . then received a txt msg frm ths guy saying " if we like somebody blablabla ... wrong impression yadayadayada ... " WTF ?! weyhh ... well , somebody did say tht tht particular guy likes me . HAH ! dude !! you knw tht i have a boyf rght ?? sorray ! frnds only ! ngee . trus wthouth a doubt showed the msg to aimeen and he showed me the grin yg kerek ! :| aihh . sabar je laa . bie .. bie .. huhu . dnt you get it ?? i love YOU laaa ... bkn dorang !! geget kang !! ngee ~ nw bosan bosan bosan !! waiting a msg fr aimeen . aihh . lame btol bie mkn !! huhu . well , mntk diri dulu yerr .. ngee ~ toodles !!!

2008-03-07T23:24:00.000-08:00

eeesh . benci la cmnie . :| tk skaa . aihh . sbar jelaa . huhu . smile smile smile ! and do the shimmy ! ngee ~

2008-03-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

OMG !!! penat !! all week ! sports week ! well , evnthough i tk msk in any sports tp train handball bagai nk rak ! huhu . tdi kt school ade tarik tali and guess wht ? my baby masukk . ngee . sumpah COMEL glaaa dia tdi !! bajet commander !! cheh ! haha . actually before dia maen tarek tali he ws like being all emo-ish with me which made me like damn stressed up ! hee . during the tarik tali's event , i ws like cheering fr TEMENGGUNG (well , mostly ws cheering fr him :p) so , he ws like curi2 pndg laa . aww . baby ... ngeee . aftr tht trus okay . hee . he ws sooooo bangga wth himself ! konon a good commander laa ?? haha . i went crazy when he ws like tarik-ing the tali wth one hand and ws telling his teammates to hold ! OMG !! jd gila ! haha . then nw wht happen ?? saket tgn kn ?? haaa . pdn mka . :p . hee . syg bie ! then ptg lepak rmah samira rmai2 . gla best !! aimeen syg pn mls nk balek rmah soo dia mndi rmah sam jee . ngee . pemalas !! arnd 4 lbey cmtu sume dh pengsan kt living room rmah sam . haha . best sgt3 ! then g bola baling practice i ws the only u-18 player ! shit laa . huhu . cikgu !! cikgu kne gk syg saya lbey !! ngee . o then balek , g rmah sam since mama balek LAMBAT ! boleh tk kul 10 lbey boss tk kasi kuar lg ?? BANGANG ! hear tht en.whtever your name is . ??? bdo ke ape ??? if you dnt knw how to run a business then dnt start one idiot !!! sheesh ... heheh . bengang glaa babe !! okay la then . bosan laa . ngee . byee `

2008-03-01T23:20:00.000-08:00

bored !! huhu . i love youuuuuuuuu !!!!! ngee ~ bye ~ heheh .

2008-02-29T03:56:00.000-08:00

T-I-R-E-D !! get it ?? huhu . i ran fr my life ths mrng and nw im suffering in my life as my whole body is aching like shit ! im walking like a woman in their 'pantang' . huhu . and nw my head is soooo heavy (pening laa) . haihs . frst off i started at the back , i mean the back . huhu . then passed most of the girls . *cheh cheh . tk dpt gk num . hee . then lari lari lari, nmpk her ! haha . tk dpt pass though cz she ws too far and i ws too tired . huhu . we're okay . i think . i mean , fr me im okay wth her . :) . today teyra said sorry , yay ! means tht im nt fighting wth anyone nw . :)))))))))))))))))))))))) . i hate fghtng . seriously . huhu . aaahhh . pnat !! okay la bye ! and nw ... do the shimmy !!! ngee .

2008-02-28T05:13:00.001-08:00

hey ! havent benn blogging fr quite a while nw . hehe . i've been practising EVRY day fr handball's tournament . soo , i dnt have the time to even do my hw ! tht's dangerous !! ngee . annd .. tmr there's the merentas desa thingyy . aihh . cnt wait to burn some calories since i ate kfc tonight and there's still a WHOLE box of cheesy wedges waiting fr me to eat them . shit . fat fat la nnt . aihh . tdi ptg dh bwt sit up ! fuh semangat !! huhu . nw i'm listening to mama and abg' babbling abt mama nk open a restaurant . aihh . nnt tlg mama ! ngee ~ well , today ? bored ! ade perjanjian rasmi which is abt samira's pledge abt nt having a bf fr two COMPLETE years . HAHA ! yea rght syg !! haha . aimeen ?? im so so so happy wth him . i love him , like seriouslyy !! ngeheh . nw nw thre , say wht you wnt bt im nt going to make a statement abt anythng . happy ? :)))) dhdh . mls nk type pnjg2 . byee ~

2008-02-25T00:24:00.000-08:00

bored bored bored ! aihh . why is evryone quarrelling ??? man .. chill la . we cn settle it the easy way okay . dnt have to actually fight over somethng stupid . gosh .. dhdh . aftr ths pn , im nt going to pndg slack or wtv . just SMILE !! ngee ~ okay ? im nt going to say sorry bcz i ddnt do anythng wrong rght ?? yes .. haha . babe , pls dnt make a fool out of yourself . you dnt knw wht's going on and i knw tht you dnt even wnt to knw . pls stop fghtng wth her . im nt going to say anythng stupid bt i advice you pleeaassee nt to fght wth her anymore . again , you dnt knw wht's actually happened here . and i promise tht i wont tell you as it'll break yr heart . it's his fault fr lying bt its no good fr you to go and trust him just like tht and blame her . i am nt on her side bt i knw wht's going on and you dont . please stop ? aihh . and as fr you !! haha . nothing la monster .. okay okayla . sorry fr the harsh thngs tht ive said abt you okay .. i mean aftr you've said something abt me in yr ms . :)) . and im nt apologizing to your indon stpd mthrfckng frnd ! bloody hell . babi pnya pompuan . aihh . bt sorry kay babe ! :)) . aannndd .. my life has finnally turned into a better life these days . thnk god !! ngee ~ except fr the part when abg , kakak and mama are alwys stressing me out abt my hw . shit btol . haihh . fr the rest , BEST ! ohh and and , amer plan nk g pd on this coming holiday . wth ... me , samira , adib , ikram , effy , faris , aimeen . :) . yeahh . maybe on the 13th , 14th and 15th la . MAYBE . plan je baru . ngee ~ bt hope jd la . huhu . cnt wait ! aihh gla sleepy oh !! ystrdy tdo at 3 cm ngok gla . lyn org psycho kn kn ?? haha . th pape . ngek lh you ! sepak kang ! i gla ngntk tw !! and pdn mka you bgn lmbt !! haha . naseb tk kne tnggl je ngn bus ! hahaha . gla pnya org ! :p . aihh . bored bored ! byee ~ muahmuah !! :D

2008-02-23T19:36:00.000-08:00

you knw wht ?! i've had it . im just going to come clean abt evrythng because i have had enough ! sorry no hard feelings but i've kept evrythng bottled up until im fed up ! i thnk you're okay bt wht the hell is your problem ? im tired of fighting abt things tht i dnt even why are we fighting abt it . you said tht i ws the one who likes to find faults with you ?! exscuse me ? you said sorry last time and i ws satisfied knowing tht evrythng has been settled just the way i liked it . and THEN , in all of a sudden you typed 'something' abt 'jgn lh cri gado , kutuk-kutuk ' and wht nt . well , i admit tht i personally thnk tht's me you're talking abt because aftr i hve hit you back then it has turned into an argument through ms . babe ! i dnt like you ! i am being honest by telling you tht i dnt like in every single thng tht you do , say or wtv . and i KNOW tht you too hve the same mutual feeling as i do nw . so ? i hate having enemies . i dnt knw abt you , bt i hate fighting . i am soo tired of hitting back whatever yr fnrd says . hey ! bt then again , wht the fuck is your problem ?? okay i knw you're a rich dude's kid . bt so ? even if your dad is rich bt you're not ! thnk abt that ! and eventhough your dad is rich but your attitude is like 'bloody hell ..' , then again , no use ! ppl wont even take a glance at you if you're nt rich and hve tht kind of attitude . and i heard tht you ditched yr old frnds . two of them rght ? aihh . do you actually think that by having your current frnds nw tht you're better ? i think tht maybe i'll be good to you if you have the same attitude when you were with yr old frnds . babe , i did nt pick a fight wth you okay . haihh . and wht's with the 'i am so good-looking , and i hve great frnds , and im better than you !' attitude ? yeah , i dnt knw wht's your real attitude bt from wht i've seen ? you're a wannabe bitch ! and yr indon frnd ? she's a total bitch ! bt you're a wannabe bitch . get it ? maybe you like being a bitch bt i dnt . so , by fighting or arguing with you , a wannabe bitch , makes me one too . so you knw wht am i going to do ? ignore , yeah im going to IGNORE whatever you're going to say or do . ESPECIALY yr frnd , the indon-like frnd . haha . seriously , she looks and acts like an indon too . dont you feel embarassed by having tht kind of a frnd ? haha . shameful . she'a a ghetto fabulous you knw ? haha . yucks . ppl like you two , dsnt deserve to be fighting with me . get it ?! buSUEk ? haha . sedar tk you spe ? dhla gumuk ! nk poyo2 plak ngan aku ! ehh , dhla gelak cm cicak ! haha . yeahh , i heard you laughed yesterday . to be honest , i ws shocked knowing the way you laugh is like tht . serious gla buruk weyh ! haha . bdn je besar . tp kecut cm bdo . haha . dhla pndg org cm bajet bgus je . heh ! kau tu gumuk skali aku lempang lemak sme pecah ! haha . poyo nk diet ?? hahaha . babe , ingt senang nk hilangkn all the lemak ??? ahaha . mkn je laa . continue jd gumuk sudeyy . ngee ~ comel dh tuuuu . hahahahhhahhahaha . comel ???? jgn bwt lwak .! kwn kau yg sorang tu ! aihh . cm bangang !! bdo nk mampos , bkn mslh dia nk msk campur plak ! th pape , mka dhla cm indon ! dressing cm prostitute indon !! haha . bpak memalukan !! at least kwn kau yg soraaaanngg tu lg tk cri gdo kn ? bgus , aku respect dia . yg lg dua ? hampeh . poyo nk mamp. ! ahaha . kau tuu .. jgn nk poyo sgt bley ?? nyampah plak ! haha . pathetic ! i bet your maid even washes your school shoes ! haha . mcm bdak tadika ! patutla immature nk mamp. ! eyh , kau tu form 5 ! why dnt you start acting like one lh fat ass ! aihh . menyemakk jee dlm hdup aku ! bwt serabut kepala otak oh !! nyahh kau !! pegi mamp. dlm lombong tu ! lg aman dunia tkde kau , at least keluasan lebih sket aku bley tgk . gahaa . ade kau je cm sesak sket lh . gumuk sgt !! and mata aku pn tkla saket sgt tgk mka kau ! pkir cm lawa jee . haha . th pape oh . eee . sumpah geli !!!

*babe , haha . no hard feelings la ! bnde betol kott . monster !! :D

2008-02-23T14:39:00.000-08:00

babe !! hw cld you think tht way ?? pleeaassseee ... i bknnya rpat sgt ngn 'dia' . i rpat ngn kwn dia . i okay je ngn dia . we're just real frnds laa . babe ... why cmnie ??? aihh .. pleasee ?? i pn tknk you and yr bestest frnd tk rpat just because of me . please ? i sanggup tk kwn ngn dia if you cmnie . babe !! please !! why ??

2008-02-22T22:45:00.000-08:00

mmm . hate myself for doing tht . shit . haihh . no mood fr blogging today . HAH !! fuck you fat ass woman ! poyo . dhla suro kwn kau yg mka cm INDON tu kutukkn . haha . th pape . bdo . :)

2008-02-22T05:40:00.000-08:00

you are freakin weird lh dey ! th pape . speaking english ?? haha . broken lh babe !! its okay . learn ! haha . stpd lh you bloody hell . frst , you are such a coward ! num. 1 coward in the wrld i thnk . second , alaaahhh ... mls lh nk ckp . heheh . babe ! mls lh nk gdo nie . cm bngang PLUS immature . maybe you are bt im nt . so nk gdo , gdo lh kau dua org ngn kwn INDON kau tu . :)))

2008-02-21T05:38:00.000-08:00

mmm . yellow !! nw gla tired . wanna knw why ? train handball cm gla . aihh . pnat glaa . agk2 bley ke jd keeper ? haha . kecik sgt ! slalu keeper org2 bdn bsar kn ?? tkpe , tkpe . unique ! cheh !! haha . ' terima kasih ' ? haha . pape laa . mls glaa nk lyn . pegi mampos la kauu ! haha . eyy , bsan lh ! bie , please lh ! tk lrat dhlaa .. aishh . ska kau ? haha . bdo nya manusia (bkn bie tw) . mmm . this week tk bwt hw SATU pon since gado ngn org tu and cm tkde mood lngsung . mampos la . mls nk pkir . aihh . stressful week ! shit . hate my lifee . oh yeah , tdi aftr hanball cm ddk sorang2 kt tmpat mnunggu and naseb ciya and samira dtg tman KJAP pn jd laa . ciya sgt comel ! :D . aihh . then msg2 aimeen dia then balek . aimeen plak dtg aftr i dh balek . aihh . ape laa . mmm . stress glaaaaa !! haha . oh yeah ! today kacau syamim oh ! *abg samira . haha . funny ! cmel la dia glbh ! samira . jgn malu okay ! haha . bestbest ! mmm . tu jela kot . no mood sgt nk speaking today . :( . bye .

2008-02-20T23:17:00.000-08:00

shit ! shit ! shit ! shit ! SHIT ! hmmm !!! gado with aimeen laaaaa . gla stress !! TWO days tk jmpa dia . today dia tk gtaw langsung yg dia tk pegi school , then time balek he did nt came . * well , usually if dia tk dtg school , time i balek school dia dtg teman . (cz dia kate nk tgk jgak my fce ! ) mmm . sdey glaaa !!!!!!!! gla gla gla cry ! haish . tny sara !! dia je la kene lyn i today since gf i lg sorang tk dtg and TK BGTW JGAKK !! samieraaaa ...... explain yrself !! huhu . then dia tk msg lngsung ! yesterday ade msg2 then dia tk reply trus dunnoe why . :'''''''''''''( . cnt tell hw many times hve i cried fr him . haihs . seksa laa . yeahh maybe its my fault . i knw and im gonna change !! baby !!! pleasee ??? hmmm . sorry lh sayang .. i promise i wnt do all of tht again . ill throw all my ego-ness out to the 'lombong' thre !! :|| baby !!!! haiihhhhhh !! please syg ???? maybe you've had enough . hmm . sorry ... i syg you lhh !! you knw tht rght ?? OBVIOUSLYY !! remember wht samira and amer told you the other day ?? they told the truth . i ws sooo embarassed ! bt its true !! bie ! i syg you lh ...! sorry kayy . mmm . i dnt knw . because of this i didnt do any of my homeworks . mmm . i dnt knw laahh . :((( .

2008-02-19T22:51:00.000-08:00

hye hye ! mmm . be ready cz im in the mood fr writng a looooooooonggggg post ! haha . frstly !! mmm . do you knw tht i hve lots and lots and LOTS of names ? haha . overall , my family czlls me 'hani' . then MOST of my family PLUS mama calls me 'baby' or 'b' . HAH ! hahah . then papa and nenek calls me 'adik' (sometimes la) . huhu . my frnds call me 'suraya' or 'SUE' ! haha . aaaandddd abg calls me 'pendek' , 'gemok' , 'gdik' , 'maam besa' and pape lagi laa . (brothers ! wht do you expect ? haha) . knw wht has happened today ?? mmm . PAGI2 lagi dh NANGES ! shit . bgn2 pagi cm nk demam , then MLASSSS glaaaa nk pegi school , okaayyy finee .... pegi laa . nnt abg mra , * aaahhh .. intermission , sara calls ;) * sooo kne pegi la gaaakk .. huhu . then pagi2 tgk mka aimeen sayang ( yeke ?? haihh . :( ) then blablabla .. nanges .... haihs . msk clas yadayadayada .. LALU CLASS DIA !! hahahahahhahahaha . makan kak ???? ahhaha . patutlaaaaaa ...... *eherm . haha . recess mkan spaghetti , YUMMAYY !! haha . althoug the spaghetti's noodle is quite soft . VERRY ! haha . then .. aftr rehat blaja sejarah kjaaap sangat ! ade this two guys walked in our class dgn Pn.Parames .. haihs ... SAKET otak dgr suare tht teacher . hehehe . then the patrick guy ws yapping abt carrer pathways la ape la . i ws too sick to concentrate to whatever he ws saying . mmm . :| . after tht BIO ! shit . tkde mood LANGSUNG nk blaja bio tahu !! then kepala cm nk PECAH ! pening ! balek rmah , mkan3 .. then ONLINE ! ngee ~ aftr mama hbes work nk visit yusni jaafar . the veteran actress i suppose ? hmm . she's our family friend actually . soo , you all must've heard tht she's in a critical situation rght ? ( i mean her health ) mmm . sooo .. nk g visit kt SELAYANG ! shit . BAPAK jauh ! haihs .. HAH ! speaking abt yg taylor's colleage pnya guys yg dtg tdi ... do you knw whts my ambition is ? haha . quite funny lh . mmm . psychologists ! ngee ~ see , i'm planning to get a diploma in tessel then degree and masters in psychologyy . well , what a high ambition rght ?? at least its better than being a dctr ! mama ws forcing me to be a dctr . TK MAHU LA MAMA !!! ishk . frst of all , we MUST get 4 flats *and you know tht i'm nt capable in doing that ! i mean MA !!! hani tkleyy lhh ! :| . secondlyy , do you know the duration to BE a dctr ?? 10 years !! i hate studying lh ma ... dnt expect me to be studying till im 30 okayh ! nonono . thirdlyy , i HATE the sight of blood ! hesh ! PLEASE lh !! eeee . then tk skaaaa lh sket2 kne page if spe2 accident or wtv . ishk . then the white (jacket ?) is tht wht you guys call it ? haha . wtv laa . soo tk vogue ! ahaha . well , memain jee . maaaa ... tk ska lh dctr !! and because of tht she FORCED me to be in pure science's class . MAMA !! hani yg nk study lh bkn mama . waaa !! mama seksa hani ohh ! mama ingat senang ke ??? i knw why she wsnt me to be a dctr SOOOO much ! sbb ... papa dlu pn amik med . then bley tk papa lari from UM then g msk askar ?? to be exact , TUDM . haihh .. PA ! wht were you thinking ?! huhu . okay laa . at least dpt jd pilot gk . ngee ~ good choice father ! :D . haha . then abg pn amik foundation of med kt matrics , then nw jd pilot cm papa gk ! haih . sooo , tnggl me sorang je la .. nono mama . hani tk lrat !! huhu . psychologists pn ley jd rich kn mama ?? sooo .. tkpelaa . at least if ade masters in psychologists pn companies sme pn ley consider nk hire . mle2 nk jd stewardess ! ahah . * cz i LOVE LOVE to travel ! cnt actually blame me since i've been travelling fr evry year since i ws little kaaann ?? :)) then if nk jd pilot mnde mne2 airline companies nk hire a woman pilot . tkdeee .. haihh . kje pe lg yg slalu travel ??? yilek ! haha . and i pn cm minat2 gk psycho org ! gaaahaa . sooo suitablee sangaat lh ! ahaha . then wht the HELL am i doing in a PURE SCIENCE class ?? haish . membazir brain cell je nk kje bnyk2 kn ??? mama lahh !!!!!! huhu . salah mama !!! :ppppp tknk kawan !! ishk . well , maybe gk mama nk prove kn papa yg eventhough im living wth her i cn still be a useful person . mama , i will mama . :) . papa pn , i'll be a gd and a useful person kayy .. dnt worry . i wont turn out to be a burgler or wtv . promise ! :)) . annnd .. as for YOU you daughter of a bitch ! FUCK you lh BETINA ! bangang ! kau pkir nk kikis duet bapak aku kau bley hdup senang ? bley pegi mati ! tgk lh kau .. tk selamat hdup kau bwt family org jd cmni . kterang mmg sure nnt papa dh saket or wtv kau tkkn kesa kn ?? its okay !! nk amik duet bpak aku ? go ahead ! bt gve our father back lh bloody hell ! ishk . kalau aku dpat kau mmg aku tendang jgak tummy kau . dhla gumuk !! tk sdar dri btol . gdik nk mampos ! ehh , tearing people's family apart doesn't differenciate you than a bitch or shld i say demon ? a living demon . fck you bitch . IF only my father dies befre you do , you just wait fr us 3 siblings to come knocking on yr door . be prepared cz we wont frget wht you did . because of YOU we've lost our own father and because of YOU mama , kakak , abg and even ME is living hard . we dnt thnk yr happy nw . i personally thnk my father is nt happy . we're his kids . you cnt tear a father apart from his kids . never . yeahh you're his current world bt wait till i grow up . you cn just WISH you cn get him back when he's sick or old . you cn hve his money , his house , his CARS * i knw he pays fr your car lh bitch . bt you cn never have him . he's OUR father . and we can pay fr evry single penny tht he've spent or we cn gve him money tht he needs . you knw wht ? thts why ill study hard . to live wth him . EVENTHOUGH he doesnt take us as his children anymore bt we still treat him and take him as our father . cn you imagine , you've tore our whole family apart . shit you . damn . we'll nver frgve you and you'll get back wht you've done and you'll pay . mmm . i dnt knw why evry FAT ass in the wrld hve a problem wth me . haihs . well , they cn get lost . i dnt care . * i dnt knw why am i emo-ing nw . well , to think abt all of it back , im kind of stressed out abt it . i mean ALL of it . i mean , looking at all those ppl out thre who has it all . wealth , health , looks , happiness , sometimes i'll just look at them and think . think abt wht dont they hve . fr me , i dnt quite have the looks , wealth ? did hve . health ? alhamdulillah .. happiness ? i dnt hve tht . i dnt knw . my sis and i thought of it and we KNOW tht we does nt hve anythng . i mean . haihhh . thlaa . i kind of envy 'them' bt come to think of it , we'll say " org akn dpt sebahagian hdupnya " . well , its nt fair to me . ppl say good ppl will obtain gd comebacks IF we do good . bt bad ppl will eventually obtain bd comebacks . BUT as i've observd , bd ppl nowadays are living the life and the gd ones are suffering . why ? its nt fair . where's my part of life ? i cnt see and am nt seeing it nw . then when ? you knw , thts why i'll alwys act spontaneous towards anythng and evrythng . bcause sometimes 'thngs' only cmes once . they dnt usually cme all the time . sometimes we hve to be an opportunist to succeed in life . bt sometimes we'll only watch the opportunity walk pass us without doing anythng . hmm . life is SO complicated . i hate it .

2008-02-18T02:53:00.000-08:00

eherm eherm .. exscuse me ? cn you puhleaseeeeeeeee tell me wht story did i make huh monster ?? bpak gampang kau ! tkley bla . haha . dhla SEBOK nk tkar2 who i'd like to meet gk ! SEBOK ! SEBOK ! SEBOK ! eeeee . benci gla !!! haha . ishk ishk ! i knw you'll alwys read my blog and checkout my page every single time you online rght ? haha . guess wht ? me too ! sooo ... we're enemies huh ? haha . eee . tk hingin ah jd enemy kau pompuan ! eee . gla geli ! tkley bla . haha . ska bwt cerita dn kutuk ?? EXSCUSE ME AGAIN !? please please please tell me wht story did i make AND alah !! mcm lh kau tk kutuk aku ?! ingt aku bodoh cm kauuu ?? haha . i cn be mean sometimes . SORRY ..... NOT !!! haha . tkley bla doh kau ! eee . bpak humongous !! haha . dhla suro kwn pndgkn slack kt aku !! eeee . skali lg PENGECUT !! haha . bpak malu siod if i were you . haha . haihh . apee laa ... geleng kepala je laaaa ... HAHA !

today ?? aihh ... penat glaaaaaaaaaaaaaa babi !! and and HYPER nk mampos !! haha . school ws okay . ttibe kn ... time bdak2 tu rehat kn ... kwn dia pndg slack oh ! uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ..... TAKOTNYEEEEE !!!!!!!!!! ahhahahahahha . bodo glaaa . gahaaa .. then ... stayback kt school . cm ape jee . then jog jog jog ! haha . PENAT ! aihh . :|

2008-02-17T18:13:00.000-08:00

weyh ! bosan ! huhu . dh mkn yum yum ! ngee ~ nw i plak no crdt . shit . bosan glaaa . huhu . bosan bosan bosan . :)))))))))))))))

2008-02-17T00:28:00.000-08:00

hye hye hye ! ngee ~ yesterday's bbq ? haihh . BEST ! haha . gla gla best . i mean , tklh best sgt bt tgk HER face cm best plak . haha . kn monster kn ? mmm . actually lepaked cm th pape jee . nothing much . :) . i didnt ate much . sket2 jee mkn yg aimeen sayang offer . ngee ~ then lepak3 .... balek .. hehe . then that's it . took arnd TWO pictures jee . haha . tkde mood sgt nk amik pic . my frnds pn tkdee . soooo , no mood sgt . huhu . kterang cm lepak jee . smpi2 sne je nmpk her , her and HER ! potong betol ! haihh . TAPI , ttp best ! haha . dhdh . shit ! my karangan tk siap lg . maaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!! mls glaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!! tamau2 buat !! huhu . Pn.Lau nieeeeeeee ..... ska nk seksa org ! huhu . nw ? bosan glaaa !!! abg nie pon ! ska sgt nk tgk raja lwak ! haihh . haha . bt agk lwak laa , ego je lbey bwt2 tk ska . haha . internet now GLA slow ! mmm . abg la ! ngee ~ sme pn abg ! haha . shiann ..

AND samira !! why why why ??? omg sayang ... why seksa yourself ? haihh . no worries la tp babe , anis and i ade di sini ! ngee ~ okay okayla . kne blaja masak ! hahahahaha ! me ? msk ? haha . bwt lwak ! huhu . tkpee . anak dara !! byee ~~

:|

2008-02-16T02:05:00.000-08:00

bored ! huhu . haihs . monster ? ngee ~ syg kuu , spe cri gdo dlu heh ? nt me . :) i ws A okay ttibe jee nk tules2 like tht . haihs . sbar jee la . tonight bbq ! ahhh !!!!!!!! nonono !! shit shit shit ! huhu . naseb anis and eleena ade ! if nt , haihh . ngee ~ bsan neways today . tgk hindustan jee . haha . FEEL gla oh ! tkley bla . sdey2 . nw plak abg tgk rja lwk . th pape . huhu . mlas nk g lh tonight . if tk g prom bley bie ? cn cn ?? ngee ~ alaaa , ish ish !! today samira nya annie oh ! 3 mnths knkn ?? HAPPY ANNIE SAMIRA AND NAZRIN !! tmau clash2 laahhh . if syg sbar jee kay samira ? me and anis will be thre fr you ANYTIME ! kay kay ??? kami syg kamu ! ohhh ohh skema . silap silap . mne ley jd skemaa ... tu care ' dia ' .. haha . lwk ohh ! hmm !! sbar sbar ! :|

lalala~

2008-02-15T07:15:00.000-08:00

my fault my fault ! shit . bnci laahh ! tk sukka ! huhu . tkkn lh psl bbq je pn ley nk gdo2 ? haihs . tkkn bie tk phm why i tkmau pegi ? pls lh phm . mmm . bt yeah okay fine i pegi . if thts wht makes you happy . i'll go . anis anis ! pls pls pls pegi !! haihs . eleena plak tman i lh kay ? kte teman each othr . :)) . prom ? haha , kakak ws like , " pegi jela ! hani bley lg lwa lh ! " . phm2 lh why she said tht kn . :p . alaa tk kesa sgt pn ! pegi mam la dia tu ! LIC ! haha , kn baby kn ? haihs . why lh dia tkde crdt ? mama aimeen , byr lh pls duet dia !!! nnt dia tkde crdt . :( . pls pls pls auntie ? huhu . bley plak aimeen sayang smlm ws like , " i lg rela kne maki dr kne useless from bie . " haha . syg , useless je ? okay okay sorry kay bie . i tk ckp dh the word ' useless' aftr this . huhu . i promise . shit . why org nk cri gdo ? tkde kje oh ! tkpe tkpe . fget bout it . haha . tdi samira ws like " ler kterang ni asyk ngumpat je ! dosa ! dorang gk dpt phla ! " . and i ws like " alah ! nnt dorang ngumpat kterang balek , kterang dpt balek phla yg dorang dpt tdi ! * and sme pn glak ! :|" haha . btol tk ? haihs . thlaa .

nw pn glaaaaaa bsan !! mama dh tdo . abg and kakak plak g club . haiyoooo . mls lh pn nk ikt , tmr nk kuar lg . :| tgh tnggu midnght kot . supersavers . :| . haha . COMPLICATED ! stress stress stress ! ohh ! haha . nk tw tk pe samira ckp time balek tdi aftr nmpk ' dia ' ? haha . she ws like " OMG suee !! gla takot ! (tkot is meant by humongous , gigantic) OMG sue ! " haha . and i ws like "pahal nie ? pahal ? * blur gla ! " haha . anis pn cm , OMG ! tk sangka ! haha . kn anis kn ? haih . naseb dorang ade to cheer me up oh ! if nt tktw la . love em , love em , love em ! hee . words from the wise * appreciate ppl ! ( haha . wise ke ? :p ) eh tp btol oh . serious . appreciate nw if nnt pape jd NYESAL ! haha . kn ? haih . CHALLENGES ! tk lrat dh nk face it . seriouslyy . TK LRAT ! life is like ape ah org kate ? life is a big wheel ? hah . yelatu kot . ngee ~ sbar jelaa . :|

puas ?

2008-02-14T22:52:00.000-08:00

yeah ! happy kot today . BUT sorry kay baby . haihs . i tw i stpd , nt a gd gf . asyk2 nk mng jee . huhu . 'ank bongsu' kn ?? sorry sorry kay ! nnt i ngalah slalu kay ! hee . tk ego dh ! i try lpekn case PEREMPUAN SIALAN itu aite ! and if i moody2 tk mrah bie kaykay ?? ngee . sorry syg . kay ? kay ? shian bie sbar ngn my prangai jee . huhu . ill chnge aite ! hee . today kt school blaja physics jee . BOSAN nk mampos ! huhu . the rest of the day were spent by talking ! haha . best knkn ? ROCK gla class ku ! bwk kluar phne slamba bapak dia jee . haha . ngok gla wei zhong ! :p . then dgr debate last period , FUH ! gla cool sey airil debate . gla STYLE nk mampos !! RESPECT kau lh ! huhu . little misunderstanding kt school . hee . well , ms tears ppl's relationship and friendship apart !! damn ! haha . kn sara kn ?? TAPI , dh uukayy dh with si dia . :p . well , my advice jgn lh gado2 if tkde mslh . BUT IF THT CERTAIN PPL CARI MSLH , HIT BACK JE ! EVENTHOUGH IF DORANG LG OLDER . :)
loves ! :D

weyh ! ape mslh lg ni ???

2008-02-14T05:30:00.000-08:00

ishk . ade problem lg ke ?? haihs . you were the one who said sorry kn ?? so ? wht the hell is yr fucking problem la weyh ?! th pape . pkir hot sgt lh tu ? HA HA ! dh la ***2 !! tk sdar dri siod ! th pape . asl ? jelous is it ?? haha . naseb lh babe ! ishk . serious lh , wtf is yr prob lg ?? dh settle kn ?? so ?? heshh !! serious tht were so immature of you !! kate dh tua , tp yr thinking ?? HAH ! cm 5 year old ! stpd stpd stpd ! YOU ARE SO NT HOT OKAY WHT THT ATTITUDE !! fck lh . haha . so stpd of you to thnk tht way . STUPID ! wht ? do you actually think tht you're better than me ? hey ! yeah i knw youre in tht particular form and has tht particular frnds .. yeah so ? do you thnk i'd freak ? haha . SO WRONG ! get lost lh wey . thnk god kau nk blah dh next year . dhla rmah cmtu ! huhu . th pape . pkir cm lawa sgt jee . hello !! cn go to hell ! nk pndg2 slack plak kau minah ! kampong gla kau ! th pape . kwn2 sme pn dh SAH kampng ! tkley bwt pe dh . ngok gla kau ! haha . ridiculous oh kau ! seriously ridiculous ! pathetic way of thinking . skema ? HAHAHA . tw ah kureng pandai kn ? haha . tkpe tkpe aku phm . heh . stpd person . tkley bla oh ! th pape jee . dh ckp sorry tu dh ah ! nk cri2 gado lg apahal ? eyh , nk kate org coward ? EXSCUSE ME ? g tgk mirror dlu cn ah ? haha . just because you're older pkir org takot ah ? nonono . you're messing with the wrong person lh dey ! stpd . idiot glaa ! haha . jgn nk buruk2kn nme org kayh ! remember ? dhla sound org ( jpjp , 'konon' sound , dhla sound bwk kwn ! KECUT !!! see ? kn dh kate ridiculous ! haha . ish3 ) pastu dia buruk2kn org bley plak ! haha . tu lh namenye org yg tkde pendirian ! ckp je gembar-gembur ! haha . PATHETIC ! dhla burok ade hti nk ckp org kampong ? haha . rmah kau tkde cermin is it ? haha . ke trlbeyh perasan babe ? haha . ngok . bangang ! dhla , waste my time oh nk pkir2 bout org yg TKDE OTAK cm kamu ! haha . two words lh betina , RIDICULOUS AND PATHETIC !

*well , spe2 yg terasa tuu , NASEB AH ! haha .

yeay !

2008-02-12T02:16:00.000-08:00

theehee . dh edit blog !! yeay ! haha . lawa knkn ?? well , my soulmate yg ajr !! yay sayang you ! heheh . today ? mmg gila ! haha . kt class , mlyn hazim and afif tu like OMG tkbley bla ! haha . samira lg bley ckp , " name kau , kau , kau nnt sme ade dlm blog aku ! " haha . sebok jee . :p . samira gla yay yay ! haha . aimeen sayang ? HAPPY TERAMAT ! yay sayang dia ! huhu . baby lh !! mmm . knw wht ? nnt thursday nie the 14th laahhh ! huhu . guess hw long ? 10 mnths ! haha . yay lama gla ! :)))))) . today gla hyper oh ! and samira , sara and amer psychoed me ! heh . bout afira pe sme . hehe . thnks lh sayangs ! cnt live and deal anything without y'all ! hee . well , mama nie plak skang tkde kje and bce my blog ! heh . sebok glaaaa mama !! huhu . pastu tny hw ! ishk . saket hati ! hehe . supposately plan today nk g jogging . hoh . MLAS GLAAA !!! typical hani lh kn ! haha . mls la . slalu nk postpone . huhu . cane nk kurus nie ?? haiyaa . hee . okay okayla . bye lh ! muahmuah !! :)))

gosh . tmr is schooling .

2008-02-11T07:09:00.000-08:00

haihs . bosan glaa ! mmm . i hate school . you knw why ? because of tht particular girl . shit . hate her , hee . tklh hate sgt bt cm tk ska la . mmm . i dnt knw her true self lh bt the attitude tht she has showed me makes me dislikes her . haihs . and and i hate physics !! and thts why i hate going to school . ngee . loves ? why why why ??? hehe . tw2 sndri lh . :p . frnds and boyf ! :))))))))

liar ?

2008-02-09T02:56:00.002-08:00

hesh . LIAR . nw im getting my facts rght and the minute that i do , you're in trouble dude . you'll see wht'll happen to you if i caught you lying to me . damn . babi btol lh !! jga you !!! ishk !

save me some of it please ?? :)

2008-02-08T01:09:00.000-08:00

hey kamu kamu ! :)) bored glaaaa ... haihs . you knw wht ? gla tkley bla ! yesterday cm biase kuar lpak with my sisters' frnds . then ckp pnya ckp ttibe one of her frnds were talking abt ghosts ! shit ! the WHOLE nght we were talking abt our experiences . damn . it ws all scary stories ! damn . and dan2 je plak tonght tnggl my sis and i jee in the house . mama !!!!! hah . mama balek trngganu and abg fly . cm siodd !! gosh . hw hw ? and were both scaredy cats ! haha . hbes lh mlm nie .. two ppls jee in this big house ! okay lh big lh jgak kn . haha . tk sanggupp !! waaaaaaa !! then we jokingly said to my brother nk bwt slumber party . haha . yee la sgt !! tdi time abg left fr work we were like ' PARTAYYY !!! ' haha . tkley bla . serious no thngs to do at all !! if nk kuar pn , kakak ade assignment and if me myself nk kuar ngn my frnds CONFIRM kakak tk kci since dia takot nk tnggl sorang . hahah . *see anis ? sorry yah . next tme kte kuar lg kayh ! ;) . nw tkde crdt !!! shit . bsan tw , i cnt text wth my baby !! ngee ~ mmm . nk tw tk one of the stories smlm ? ade hs woman , haha . okay okay , get serious , woman ni my sis pnya frnd , fae , pnya sis in law . well to be exact , tmr lh the wedding . haha . okay serious2 ! mmm . then she ws living wth her mum bt tht particular nght plak her mum went out . then she ws all alone lh kn . theenn , she ws watching tv . tbe2 ade this lembaga perempuan kluar from her mum's room then heading twards the kitchen . then when the ' lembaga perempuan ' tu tgh otw nk pegi kitchen sempat plak toleh tu the women ( yg going to be fae's sis in lw tuu ) ha . then dia toleh kt tht women then tw dia bwt pe ? mengilai . SHIT ! meremang bulu roma ! then dgn panicknya the woman call her mum crying cm org gla suro balek . damn . if i ws her i'd be glbh2 in search of the damn bloody house keys then BLAH lh ! huhu . mne lh tw if tht ' lembaga perempuan ' amik air from the kitchen then pegi join tht woman tgk tv ke kn ? huhu . and when kterang dgr tht story we were like aaaaaa .. shitt !! haha . ade my sis pnya frnd jgak , nme dia siti . heheh . dia kata if she ws in the situation tw dia bwt pe ? haha . BANGING HER HEAD TO THE WALL BG PENGSAN !!! haha . tkley bla ! huhu .

kakak just made me a waffle ! hee . baek gla ! yummy glaa !! dnt be jelous eyh .. haha . haihs . today's friday kn ? hmm . bsan glaa !! ystrday i ws naughty !! hee . secret2 ! :p . kn baby kn ? ngee ~ mmm . tu jela kott .
bye bye lh ! nethin i'll update you guys aite ! ngee ~ muahmuah ! :)))))

lean ?

2008-02-07T06:08:00.000-08:00

heh . bsaann !! huhu . bye ~ :p

i love my frnds and tht's tht !

2008-02-05T16:49:00.000-08:00

yeah , maybe you can say tht i make a BIG deal out of erythng . bt you must remember , who looked out fr you fr the past years tht we've been friends ? i treatd you like a sister to me . bt i dnt knw why and hw our frndshp ended up as a huge pile of rubbish . you knew tht all these shits will happen . bt i dnt knw why didnt you do anythng abt it . i ws waiting fr your mssg fr two weeks . its the thought tht counts . i ws hoping tht you'd still remember me evnthough you've shiftd school and gained new frnds . bt seems like you ddnt even bother to text me . you said tht you've been busy bt you did wnderd abt it evry day ? i dnt belive tht bullshit . sorry . its fine with me if you wnt to start a new life bt you werent planning to bring me along with you . i dnt mind . because you knw wht ? i've got new frnds which i thnk is better than you . im nt gonna say tht you're irreplaceable . well , guess wht ? frnds come and go . the fact tht you left me and frgets bout me easily ws the one tht pissed me off . even during handballs' practice , i ws hoping fr you to come . bt you didn't . quick ? you said tht just because i have new frnds tht i frgt bout you ? hey , i didnt neglected you at tht bloody time rght ? did i ? i've asked you to join us bt you wishd to go wth yr 'new' frnds instead . and you're blaming me ? you knw wht ? i even cnsdred going to quick ws partly because of YOU . bt you said tht i have to look at myself because i too have new frnds and all . yes , i do have new frnds bt i didnt frgt about you . why must you blame it all on me ? i'm nt blaming you just like tht . you said tht i've to get my facts rght frst . well , i did . and i wouldn't even consderd to fire you if i dnt get my facts rght . im nt tht type okay . i knw tht you're wrng . im nt saying im nt . yeahh . you cn say messaging wth me is a waste of time and wtv . well , you knw wht ? i knw you . you're nt like tht . i knw you said tht because you're sistr ws wth you . and she ws the one who told you to say tht . she's a tessel student isnt she ? well , i knw . i knw a WHOLE lot abt you . you cnt fool me . i even knw tht you thought tht having new frnds is better thn having just me . you said tht i've to understand you because if you stay 4 then you'll be teased by his frnds , yadayadayada . you said tht you've to stand on your own feet ? FUCK THT ! you've got me !!! well you did ! you didnt appreciate me . you took me fr granted . when you thought ateen ws a good frnd and all . you neglected me last year . you didnt care abt me when you were wth ateen . bt ths year , when she's shwd her inner self , then you came to me . you've changed best frnds bt i remained . why ?? you didnt thnk abt tht . you said tht you love tasha because she's yr only frnd in 13 and in class . then wht ws i when you were in 4 ? wsnt i yr only frnd ? bt you didnt say thngs like tht abt me . well , ths is a big deal . and i knw im rght fr making it a big deal . you said tht you've throw me out of yr life ages ago . tht easy huh ? hmm . well fine . i dnt fucking NEED you as my frnd indeed . nw ? yes i've got my new bestfrnds . and my boyfrnd . at least they knw hw to appreciate me . unlike SOME ppl . all i cn do nw is mke the best out of evrythng wth my new frnds . i dnt need ppl like you in my life . you cn go to hell wth yr new fckng life . wht the hell i care ?

seriously nw i love my frnds . i've lost one bt i've gained lots . and they're all good to me . all i have to do nw is just be good and appreciate them bck . good luck wth yours too . have fun wth yr ife ditcher !